How Google Chrome was born

Source: http://www.oneweb20.it/12/09/2008/google-sfida-microsoft-con-chrome/

LOL I just find this cute ^^

Empty

I really hate myself for feeling like this. Seriously. I just can't get it off me.

I've never had this kinda feeling before I came to Melbourne, though. Not really.

I don't really know how to put it into words. I'm not happy. Not sad or angry, just...not happy. But the problem is really that I don't even know what I'm not happy about. How am I suppose to fix this when I don't even know the source of my unhappiness???

I can be with tons of friends, fooling around, enjoying some girl time, laughing out loud...but I'll just suddenly stop smiling or I'll just smile on the outside. It's like I couldn't bring myself to open up completely to my new friends. I guess this is what they called feeling alone in a crowd.

And I kinda start feeling this distance between me and my old buddies. Which sucks. Big time.

That might be a contibuting factor to my uneasiness. But I don't really think that's THE reason. I guess what I'm saying is...I'm feeling this emptiness in me. It's like a part of me is missing. And I don't know what it is.

I wanted to stop thinking nonsensical stuff when I should be focusing on my studies, which I REALLY should and need to, since I shamelessly failed a unit last semester.

If there really is a God up there, please answer my prayers.

Bizarre dreams~

Okay, so a couple of days ago, I had this super weird dream. I dozed off on my bed when I was studying for a test. When I woke up, I didn't remember immediately what I dreamt. I didn't even remember I had dream!

But then, everything started coming back to me when I was having a shower in the morning. I could only remember a scene from the dream, but that was enough to blow me away.

I was kissing. Someone who I have absolutely NO IDEA who the hell he is. And on top of that, I could actually FEEL the kiss!!! I remember how it felt like when our lips touched!!

Why am I so shocked, you may ask. Well, frankly...I'VE NEVER KISSED BEFORE! So how the hell could the kiss be so real if I've never experienced a kiss before??

The first reaction I had when I remembered the feeling was...YUCK! It's just...EWWWW~ Maybe it's because he's someone I don't know. But...seriously...HUH?? What the hell was that?

I looked for the so-called "dream dictionary" online, and it said that dreaming of a kiss with a stranger represents I need to accept some yet-to-be-known aspects of myself, or something like that. LOL~ Like it makes any sense at all. =.=

Now that I mentioned this, I remember having a weird dream, an even more bizarre dream than this one, during high school. In that dream, I lived in the Ancient China. I was a noble or a concubine or some rich young lady. I was standing in a small pavilion on top of a waterfall with another girl. We were arguing about something and then, without warning, she stabbed me in the back with a knife. I can still remember how it felt like. I can still remember the feel of a cold blade stabbed into my back.

And after I was stabbed, I remembered I was trying to save myself by running away from her. And the first thing I could think of was to jump off the pavilion and into the water down below. The waterfall was so huge, and the pavilion was so high up on the waterfall, I couldn't even see the bottom. But still I jumped without hesitation. I still remember the feeling of endless falling. And that was when I woke up. I was so scared because I thought I was still in the dream. I even checked my back to see if there's really a knife there. But then I finally realised I was in reality again, but my heart was still thumping hard against my chest.

I laughed to myself for being fooled by a dream. Well, a nightmare to be exact. I still have goosebumps whenever I think about it. What's more surprising is that I can remember the dream's every detail even till this day. Perhaps it was too terrifying.

These are the only dreams that I could actually FEEL something. I usually couldn't even remember my dreams after I wake up.

Artwork update ^^

Title: Saitou Hajime (shaded)

This one was completed quite some time ago. I haven't finish the "Four Princes of Hell", though. I still have a little bit of shading left.

Oh, in case it looks like some alien thing to you, the mark on his face is actually, well, blood. I know. It doesn't look like blood ><

Title: Chronic Misery

Yes, I like emo stuff. Gothic, sad, sorrow, etc. Can't help it. XD I didn't really intend to draw this nicely at first, though. I was only doodling out of boredom, sketching roughly. But then, it sort of turned out to be rather nice so I traced the sketch with pen and added some shading.

Title: ...Do I even need to tell you? LOL!

This is Aizen (in case my rendition of him is really poor to the point of him being unrecognisable). The super badass from Bleach. And my all-time favourite villain. XD He's really evil, and if I'm a guy, I would dislike him. But, I'M A GIRL. And let's be honest, what girl wouldn't drool over his evil-badass-sexiness??? LOL

My jaw dropped literally when I saw his transformation from a geeky-looking nice guy, to a SUPER HOT villain. He's handsome in a way completely different from the bishounen in shoujos. He's handsome in a kind of...MANLY way. His combed hair (with a lock of his hair dangling handsomely on his forehead), his evil smirk, his intense eyes, his clothes...everything of him shouts SEXY! XD

Okay, enough with the fangirl blabber. ^^

(P.S.: I just couldn't get enough of him!! I think I'm in love. Definitely. XD)