Craziness & Laziness

Okay, so today was the first time EVER I had classes 4 and a half hours straight without rest. I was practically running from one class to another >< Now, I finally know how my friend (you know who are you XD) feels every wednesday. Her schedule is even worse. Six hours straight!! Crazy man~

So after the 4 1/2 hours class-rushing craziness, I was FREE~!!! While my friend was still suffering in the science lab (ha-ha). I was planning to watch "the Ring" with her in the library but...*sigh* Plan cancelled. I was in the mood to scare the hell out myself with that "thing" crawling out of the TV. Lol. I'm telling you, there is something wrong with me. I actually like being spooked. My Mom said I'm weird (may be even mental XD).

That friend of mine gave me a ride home (well, her mom gave me a ride home). We detoured to the night market near my place. I saw a really cute black dress with ruffles and ribbons (my favourites) on it! I was planning to buy it, actually. BUT when I heard the phrase "60 ringgit", I was totally dejected! Argghh~ I finally found a nice Lolita-ish black dress and I can't even buy it???!! Why??? Why??? Felt so cheated...I was so close to my dream dress and yet I can't have it?

It was almost exactly like this one...but without the belt. (I was surprised I could actually find the design on Google image)

After being back at home, I was starting to have that "angel v devil" moment. Initially, I wanted to start the damn ETW assignment tonight but after going to the night market and having fun with my friend and her family (plus salivating and drooling over the dress *sigh*), I wanted to lazy around again. A part of me said, "You have to start doing it. It's due next wednesday." And then another part of me was saying, "Who cares? Doesn't hurt to fool around first and start it later. May be you should continue the novel first." Hah!! Nonetheless, the devil took over and smashed the angel down on its face, walking all over it. So much for "evil can never win against good". I could pictured the little red devil dancing around on a side of my shoulder with its pitchfork and the poor angel orz-ing on the other side. Lolx. That's the side effect of watching (and reading) too much anime and manga. Always picturing things in a comical way.

At the end of the day...I still want that dress!!!

Noctis what n what???

Haha, my third post in like 4 hours... I have this stupid habit of posting continuously once I'm in the mood. If not, I would stop posting for who knows how long. XDD

I wish I have a PS3!!! Final Fantasy Versus XIII is going to be released soon (I think) and I really wanna play it!! Gosh...

Ever since I've watched the game's trailer, I got all hooked! Seriously. I'm already in lurrvvee with the main guy even when I don't know his name. Pretty boy fetish XD. He would be my second favourite FF character after Cloud.

I found out about his name today. They finally released it *rolling eyes*. I have to say...It's a bit of a disappointment. I didn't imagine his name to be this...Latin-ish. And weird and difficult. Lolx. His name is Noctis Lucis Caelum (ノクティス・ルシス・チェラム, Nokutisu Rushisu Cheramu). It's "terrific".

Honestly, I just don't think it suits him but...Oh well, it's not in my power to object it. XD

I just wish my parents would let me own a PS3!! ノクト~君~!! *squeals* *faints*

Isn't he just cute??? And cool~~ (I have a thing for a guy with a cold facade)

"For the love of creativity and learning new things"

If someone is to ask why I like to do things involving arts (music, writing, drawing, etc) a few years back, I would probably say "I dunno. I just like them" or "Just 'cause".

But if people ask me the same question again now, I would most definitely reply confidently with "For the love of creativity and freedom and learning new things".

My first ever interest involving art is designing clothes. I never had any interest in anything before that. It first started when I was still in elementary school. My mom was spring cleaning or something like that and she found some old exercise books (the brown cover small booklets that we always use until we graduated high school). They were my sister's back when she's in elementary school (that would be more than 10 years ago at that time. Now, I think they are already as old as a 21-year-old). It was all sketches and drawings of girls wearing clothes designed by her. I went through them one by one and all of a sudden, I had the intense urge to draw, to design clothes. I tried on some used A4 papers and they were really bad. I was so naive as to think that I could draw skillfully by the first time without even have to learn. And so, I got disappointed and I stopped. But I had started to pay attention to fashion and stuff from that time on.

Then, a friend of mine introduce me to the world of manga and anime when I was in high school (Form 3 I think). She recommended a shounen detective manga to me. Yes, it's Detective Conan. When I started to read it, I liked it instantly (but the plot is too repetitive and darn long, so I stopped at about chapter 100). That was when I started to draw again. It was still bad but my skills had improved. Only a few close friends of mine knew I draw back then. I wasn't that interested in manga and stuff, though. But awhile later, Astro added a new channel --- Animax. Now, that's when I got really addicted to manga and anime. After watching hours after hours of anime during the school 2 months break, my drawing skills improved sooo much that I could not believe it myself (whoever said watching TV is a bad thing XD). Then, it got better and better (after reading many mangas) until I was known for being able to draw in manga-style. My friends even complimented me about the guys I draw. They said they were good looking (you can't imagine how happy that made me felt). And the guy, who was the most talented artist in the grade, actually specifically wanted me to draw a poster (it's for a fun-fair thingy) for our class (we're in the same class) with him!!!! I was sort of dumbfounded when he asked me.

That was when people from other grades and classes knew about me. They actually like my drawings (especially the guys the I drew). They acknowleged my drawing skills and I'm being praised!! And some stupid fat-ass was jealous of our class poster (it stood out the most amongst other classes) that he/she/they tried to ruined every one of our class's posters. They tore down the parts where my drawings were. I know I'm being a narcissist but I can't help but feel proud of myself --- because someone actually felt inferior about my drawing skills and they envied me!!! (well, and the guy,too XD) That, of course, made me angry and annoyed because they were detstroying my art ><

Aside from being able to discover a side of me that I never knew existed, I met friends (really good ones) through art. I will make sure that I will be able to take on a university course involving arts even though my Dad hates it. I won't give up!!

Okay, so enough about drawing. Now, it's about writing. It started the same way as drawing --- influenced by someone's work. This time it was my friend from tuition class. She was talking to another friend of mine about a novel she had been writing on. So, I grabbed it and read it. It was not bad for an amateur. Then, another friend who came late saw me reading the novel and told me she was writing one herself, too. I got excited about it and I started to write. That's how the seven novels from the previous post came about.

The reasons I like to draw and write are: I can let my imagination run wild. You never have to be bound by the so-called rules/laws and norms from reality. You can be illogical as far and as much as you like. Something that is suppose to happen in a way in reality doesn't mean it will happen in the imaginative world, too. Nobody is to tell you what is right and what's not. The other reason is that I get to research on things I don't know about. Now, I have more knowledge about mythology (Roman, Greek, Slavic, etc), nursery rhymes (really weird ones), history, geography and climatology (especially US), medicine equipments and so forth. I can't even list them all out. Yesterday, I looked up on types of accents and now I knew so much more about the different accents in US and UK.

Now, I'm planning on starting to learn violin (and maybe even piano) next month. I just can't keep my hands (or myself) away from artistic things.

I'm stuck

Okay, I was writing a chapter from the point of view of Jack. He was sort of "mysteriously" drawn towards Robyn who he did not find attractive initially. He was supposed to feel frustrated and confused because he knew he should not get too emotionally attached to a human but he could not stay away from her.

So...the thing is....I DUNNO HOW TO WRITE THAT!!! If I am not careful (and creative) enough, it would end up like another Twilight-cliche. I don't want Jack to be the clone of Edward. There's utterly no originality in it. And I can't accept that. No no nooooo.....

And there's another thing about Jack. I was planning to make him the mature-and-sometimes-childish character. Perfect personality and physical but hopeless when it comes to Robyn. However, strangely, he had "grown" more childish and less mature...I don't know what happened. He had become a typical seventeen-year-old instead of a "300-year-old vampire pretending to be seventeen years old". My head is going to burst open like a watermelon...

I need lemon lime and bitter!!! and pancakes and cheese and wasabi... Arghh~

These are some vampire boys that I find really nicely drawn. I admired the artists. I wish I could draw guys this good-looking. I'll try my best!! (And I've already discovered how to make my guys more handsome! XD)

五月天 Mayday - 夜访吸血鬼

最近超爱这首歌的说… =D

这是我听见的第一首以吸血鬼为主题的中文歌。第一次听就已经爱上了它。一天里重复地听了几百遍。有点发觉自己越来越喜欢五月天了。一年前我对这个乐团根本就不感兴趣。好欣赏阿信耶！他有一个很独特的歌声。他可以唱舒服、缓慢、温柔的歌，也能唱劲爆的摇滚歌。真的很棒耶！

还有一个原因令我爱上这首歌━吸血鬼主题。我已经说过最近迷上了所有与吸血鬼有关的事物。我的死党们也说我是中毒了。呵呵~ 我也搞不清楚是怎么一回事。

歌词 (Lyrics):

满怀忧伤却流不出泪
man huai you shang que liu bu chu lei

极度的疲惫却不能入睡
ji du de pi bei que bu neng ru shui

只能够日日夜夜
zhi neng gou ri ri ye ye

然後又日日夜夜
ran hou you ri ri ye ye

无尽的日日夜夜
wu jin de ri ri ye ye

永远的深陷在人间
yong yuan de shen xian zai ren jian

我是蝙蝠却不能飞
wo shi bian fu que bu neng fei

困在日复一日的街
kun zai ri fu yi ri de jie

无止尽的狩猎
wu zhi jin de shou lie

彷佛一种天谴
fang fu yi zhong tian qian

夜色就是我的披肩
ye se jiu shi wo de pi jian

日出就是我的风险
ri chu jiu shi wo de feng xian

舞池里的狂颠
wu chi li de kuang dian

是我宿命制约
shi wo su ming zhi yue

上帝遗弃我们却又要给
shang di yi qi wo men que you yao ge

i黯淡的月照亮世界
an dan de yue zhao liang shi jie

要我们无尽又无情的繁衍
yao wo men wu jin you wu qing de fan yan

看爱过的人一一告别
kan ai guo de ren yi yi gao bie

做过的梦一一凋谢
zuo guo de meng yi yi diao xie

只留下我独自残喘的千年
zhi liu xia wo du zi can chuan de qian nian

-----Chorus-----

*无法挥舞天使的纯洁
wu fa hui wu tian shi de chun jie

也无法拥有魔鬼的果决
ye wu fa yong you mo gui de guo jue

只有像每个人类
zhi you xiang mei ge ren lei

贪嗔痴傻和愚昧
tan chen chi sha he yu mei

找寻着体温和血
zhao xun zhe ti wen he xie

找寻着同类
zhao xun zhe tong lei

满怀忧伤却流不出泪
man huai you shang que liu bu chu lei

极度的疲惫却不能入睡
ji du de pi bei que bu neng ru shui

只能够日日夜夜
zhi neng gou ri ri ye ye

然後又日日夜夜
ran hou you ri ri ye ye

无尽的日日夜夜
wu jin de ri ri ye ye

永远的深陷在人间
yong yuan de shen xian zai ren jian

-----End of Chorus-----

饥饿是最好的调味
ji e shi zui hao de tiao wei

孤独是最强的催眠
gu du shi zui qiang de cui mian

疯狂找一双唇
kuang huan zhao yi shuang chun

能够当我酒杯
neng gou dang wo jiu bei

早就对这一切厌倦
zao jiu dui zhe yi qie yan juan

也曾愤怒喝下圣水
ye ceng fen nu he xia sheng shui

却又无助醒在
que you wu zhu xing zai

下个漫长黑夜
xia ge man chang hei ye

青春遗忘我们却又要给
qing chun yi wang wo men que you yao gei

回忆的美就像玫瑰
hui yi de mei jiu xiang mei gui

要余生流血又流泪的受虐
yao yu sheng liu xie you liu lei de shou nie

看镜中的脸慢慢枯萎
kan jing zhong de lian man man ku wei

高举的拳渐渐粉碎
gao ju de quan jian jian fen sui

只留下了无限唏嘘的相片
zhi liu xia le wu xian xi xu de xiang pian

Repeat *chorus

Repeat *chorus

一个又一个孤单的千年
yi ge you yi ge gu dan de qian nian

噢~日日夜夜
ou~ ri ri ye ye

然後又日日夜夜
ran hou you ri ri ye ye

无尽的日日夜夜
wu jin de ri ri ye ye (wo~~wu~~)

我不能飞
wo bu neng fei (woah~)

Skip Beat ED 1 ~ Namida

I like the first ending theme of skip beat very much. It's sorta a mix of r&b, pop, rap.....etc

It's called Namida by 2BACKKA. It means "tears".

Kanji:

僕ら何千回泣いても　きっともう1回乗り越える
不器用なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらい　わかるだろう
今が最終回　最後のチャンス　失敗したって恐くない
悲しさも　せつなさも　愛しさも　いつか癒せるさ

泣いてないて泣いた日々を背に　僕らもう1回強くなれ
臆病なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらいわかるだろう
きっと何万回　倒れても　きっともう1回　乗り越える
君の声　届くだろう　どこまでも　ずっと　まっすぐに…

思いどおりには　いかない日々
意気がることで　ごまかした気持ち
何かが壊れそうで　涙があふれそうで
素直になることができず
素顔になることができず
逃げ出すことばかりじゃ　想いは
いつまでも届かない
描いたゴールに立ち向かっていくんだ
雨風　受けても　立ち向かっていくんだ
あれよ　あれよと　時は過ぎてく
だけど　誰もが　きっと強くなる
ごまかした気持ちのままじゃ　押し殺した日々じゃダメだ
一度きりの人生の　階段を　今　登る

僕ら何千回泣いても　きっともう1回乗り越える
不器用なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらい　わかるだろう
今が最終回　最後のチャンス　失敗したって恐くない
悲しさも　せつなさも　愛しさも　いつか癒せるさ

届きそうで　届かないよ
掴めそうで　掴めないよ
いつもの　いくつもの臆病が僕の腕を引っ張る
離してよ　もう　行くよ　ここじゃない
今からでも遅くない
僕の頬をつたう　涙はこれで最後と決めた

まだ終わってない　終わっちゃいない　何も　まだ始まっちゃいない
答えは　まだ　出しきっちゃいない　まだ　諦めてない
僕が僕でいることの意味も訳も　喜びも味わっていない
一人でもう立ってる　僕だけの明日が待っている
涙ふいて　顔を上げて　ここからって　空見上げて
君笑って　手を伸ばして
一つの想いへ辿り着くまで

季節外れの　風が吹く
本当の気持ちに背を向けて行きていくよりは
多分いいよね　目指したあの場所へ

僕ら何千回泣いても　きっともう1回乗り越える
不器用なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらい　わかるだろう
今が最終回　最後のチャンス　失敗したって恐くない
悲しさも　せつなさも　愛しさも　いつか癒せるさ泣いてないて

泣いた日々を背に　僕らもう1回強くなれ
臆病なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらいわかるだろう
きっと何万回　倒れても　きっともう1回　乗り越える
君の声　届くだろう　どこまでも　ずっと　まっすぐに…

English:

No matter how many thousands of times I've cried
I'll always get over it
I can't act stupid to escape it
That kind of situation, you understand, right?
Now it's the last time, the last chance
Even if it fails, don't be scared
Being sad or depressed
Or having loved, there'll be a day
When you're cured
In those days when things don't go according to plan
The feeling of being deceived
It's like something being broken
The tears begin overflowing
It's impossible to be unaffected
It's impossible to show a frank face
If I'm always avoiding it
Thinking about it even now I won't stop
It's not finished
It can't be finished
Nothing has even started
The answer hasn't been received
I can't give up
I haven't even felt the significance, meaning and happiness of my existence
Something anyone needs
I'm waiting for my tomorrow
Stepping over those crying over and over days
I'll become strong
I shouldn't pretend to be stupid to escape it
That kind of situation, you understand, right?
Being put down many thousands times
I'll always get over it
Your voice will arrive, right?
No matter where
It will be heard immediately.

All done!!

I finally finished every bit of my assignment+tutorial homework+japanese class homework!! I literally worked like a cow by finishing a week's work in three days...Haha. It's a great achievement for me as I used to do everyting last minute.

What's my motivation for it? Haha...you won't believe it.

It's because I wanted to continue writing my Blood Moon without worrying about those darn stupid assignments... Ridiculous? Yeah, I know. XD

So, I'll be writing Blood Moon again the first thing I wake up tomorrow morning (I'll skip breakfast...or even brushing my teeth XDD). I'm seriously addicted to writing novels recently...even more than I do to drawing!!! Gosh... A novel-holic? Nah, I think it's more like writoholic (is there such word? =P).

Jack & Leroy!! (My sweethearts) Here I come~! Woo~weee~

(Crazy girl on the loose XP)

Blood Moon cover art

Just wanted to post the cover art for Blood Moon (my novel). I found this picture on the internet and thought it really suits the novel. So I took it and modified it a little using photoshop. I'm still new to this photoshop thing so I can't do much modification to the picture.

I passed it~!

I. Passed. It. Woohoo~ Yeah baby!

I thought it was really funny that everybody was telling me the same thing before I went to the test today --- don't care about the "annoyed" face that the people working there make, they just want to look annoyed and angry and scare the hell outta you. Haha.

But then, there was this girl that was going to the test, too (along with my friend's brother and another guy) and she failed the "on the road" test when the woman in charge of her test looked really irritated and angry...without any better reason than that she was in a terrible mood. I thanked god I didn't get that woman in charge of me =D If not, I'll fail the test without knowing the reason, aside from the fact that she's in a bad mood. I'd say she's throwing a temper tantrum at an innocent girl. (Poor her)

As if that wasn't enough. She was hoping that she could at least pass the parking test, but... She misinterpreted one of the workers' instruction and that had costed her a pass for the parking test. I really feel sorry for her.

Anyhow, I'm glad I passed it. I can drive legally now (as if I will actually drive XDD)

Doom's day~

我的死期到了! Tomorrow I'll be taking my driving test (finally XP) I don't know why I'm so nervous!! I'm scare just by thinking about it. I'm scare that I'll do something wrong and fail it. I can't afford to fail it. I only have this week free enough to take the test. If I fail it, I'll have to wait for about 2 months to take it again. But that would be impossible since I've already taken the "undang-undang" very long time ago. It's going to expire soon and I'll have to start all over again. Damn!! I'm doing everything that may help me to relax now. Surfing net, writing novel, listening to songs (and typing this post)... God, please help me. I know I can drive well, IF I don't panic. OTZ

Wish me the best of luck (and there won't be too many cars on the road tomorrow)! I really need to pass it. *cross my fingers*

My novels

Introducing my novels~ There are a total of four that I'm currently working on. And I had already abandoned three! Gosh...I'm too greedy XD

Here's the list:

Chinese

1. 爱上阿多尼斯 (Loving Adonis)

This is only the working title. Trying to come up with a better name =P It's a story about ordinary high school students. Typical love story I have to say XP but I added some "Hana Yori Dango" elements in it. I had fun writing this story, though, 'cause it doesn't require much plot planning XD Currently, it is 150 pages long and it's on hiatus ('cause I'm working on my English novel) So....yeah.

2. 夜 • 女神 (Night Goddess)

This has a fantasy storyline with a little mixture of sci-fi elements. It's the saddest story amongst the four. It's a bit complicated, the relationships and the plot and all. I don't know what's up with my brain coming up with such a story. Haha. It involves mythology, reincarnation, cloning, hatred, unnrequited love and different dimensions/worlds. The main character had to go through so much that I almost felt sorry for her =.="

3. 无名 (Unnamed)

That's not the name. I didn't manage to give it a name before I abandoned it. It is only 14 pages long. I abandoned it because I started writing it without thorough planning and thinking. The plot is totally outrageous! Lolx~ It's actually the original "Loving Adonis" but I changed the plot and characters completely.(Sorry, I can't remember what's the plot. Teehee)

English

1. Blood Moon

The novel I'm currently working on (non-stop >.>) I am TOO into vampires, goth, blood and stuff lately (thanks to Twilight, VK and Night World) that it kinda scares me. Haha. I was watching a werewolf movie one day (can't remember the name) when I saw a really, really scary bright red moon. I thought it was cool~ And then when I read the ending credits, I saw an interesting female name. At that moment, the plot of this novel just popped up in my head. I can't help it. I just HAD to write it out. But the details came from further thinking. The general plot and the characters were already in my head, ready to be written out. I used the name I saw from the ending credits as my female protagonist's name. Okay, back to the plot. It's about vampires, werewolves, mythical creatures, their society and vampire-human romance (obviously). There are two main male characters. One is a complete gentleman and angel; the other is a total sadistic demon king. It's 93 pages long for now. I'm trying to reach 100 by today (after a break. I've been sitting in my room for almost 24 hours writing it XD).

2. Twofold: Princes of Gryphon

I had only written a pre-chapter and a few sentences for the first chapter. That's only 3 pages. T.T I had already written down the plot but I'm just to busy to start writing it again. Obviously it's on hiatus, too. It's about two princes being separated on birth. And they sort of fell in love with the same girl. This heroine is totally different from the other girls in my novel. She's not lady-like, elegant, defendless or having any damsel-in-distress quality. She, in fact, is the hero (ahem, I mean heroine) of the story. This one has a fantasy theme, too. It's set in medieval time.

3. Unnamed A

This one would be the English version of "Loving Adonis" . It's not that I translate it into English. They just happened to have similar plots. This is the first ever novel I wrote. I started it in 2005 but abandoned it a year later for the same reason as my unnamed Chinese novel. It's 50 pages long. The more I read books like Harry Potter, the more I think this novel is rubbish. So I don't see why I should keep writing it. XD

4. Unnamed B

It's the abandoned, original version of "Twofold". Most parts of the plot are the same but the characters are very different. I had written about 40 pages for this one. Actually, I like the plot but the problem was that I couldn't relate the parts of the plot logically. It seemed weird. =.=

If I am to become a novelist, my signiture genre would be fantasy. XD Three out of four of my (still working on) novels fall under that genre.

Konnichiwa~!

This would be my first post on this blog. Haha. I suddenly had the thought of creating my own blog so I could post some of my art works and my novels. I hope they are gonna get some helpful comments so I could improve on them.