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Going public

2011-06-01T17:20:00.006+10:00

Okay, so recently I have decided to let the people from all over the internet to read my writings. Well, you know, my poems and stories. I've published them on FictionPress.com.

I don't know what I was thinking! Do you know how nerve-wracking it is every time I check on my stories' traffic stats?? If it's low, I'll feel down. If it's high, I'll feel anxious about what the readers think of my stories. Boring? Bad? Entertaining? Or worse, a Twilight material. It's even more so when I get quite an amount of hits on my stories but I get NO RESPONSE or comments from the readers! Does this mean they got bored with my stories and moved on to other writers?

Gah! I wish I could know what the readers are thinking.

New designs

2011-03-27T18:50:00.005+11:00

I LOVE military-inspired fashion: military jackets, combat boots, gold/bronze buttons, accessories, etc. I was suddenly overwhelmed by the urge to draw and design, and the brown cropped jacket had been in my mind for a few days. I'm not drawing the back/side view, since I'm really gonna make them into real clothes (I wish I can, but unfortunately, I can't even make an ordinary T-shirt).

The dress, believe it or not, I wasn't really paying attention when I drew it. I was drawing for the sake of drawing. But it turned out great. It's my fave out of the four.

The one with pink blouse >> not exactly how I imagined it. I had wanted it to have more "attitude". I was my fave when I hadn't coloured it. Now it's my least fave after colouring.

And the last one, hmm....I was inspired by a girl I saw when I was waiting for the tram. She was clad in black: black tee, black boots, black pants, and yes, long black leather gloves. And she was walking with a black umbrella. An idea struck me >> a design that has a mix of military and 19th century fashion. And the umbrella turned into a gentleman walking stick.

I have another two designs on the way (still haven't coloured them) for men. I have to say, I'm really liking these designs (which is incredible to me because I usually don't like my designs much after finishing the sketch).

P.S. I know I have ridiculous hair here. LOL

Broken Arrow (Pixie Lott) - THE perfect song

2011-03-27T04:44:00.011+11:00

I've just finished reading Beastly by Alex Flinn, seeing that how everyone commented (on the trailer on youtube) that the book is far better than the movie. The book was entertaining, but I don't exactly find it to be that awesome like some people said it is. Maybe it's because I'm beginning to grow out of YA novels.

NEway, after reading the book, I decided to watch the trailer again (to decide whether or not I'd check out the movie). And then, I just have a sudden love for the trailer's song -- Pixie Lott's Broken Arrow. (Yes, dumb me for not loving it the first time I saw the trailer).

As I was singing along (in my heart, of course) with the lyrics printed on my laptop's screen, I made a silent squeal. The lyrics...it's as if...it's written specially for the heroine in my new novel (title yet to be fixed)!! I don't think anyone would understand my excitement, though. Let's just say that I find my inspirations (mostly) from songs, and having a song that depicts EXACTLY the character in my novel, it helps me to focus (I always tend to "forget" about the character's personality/feelings). I've always been on the look out for songs like this. There were some that depicts 60-70% of my characters/story, but never 100%.

With this song, it's 100%. It's P-E-R-F-E-C-T.

The lines that best depict my heroine's feelings are these:

What do you do when your heart's in two places?
You feel great but you're torn inside.
You feel love but you just can't embrace it,
When you found the right one at the wrong time.

So, this should give you a hint on what's going on (generally) in my new novel. Have only finished 4 chapters so far. 4 short chapters. Another hint >> the story takes place after the events in Blood Moon (hopefully someone has been reading it *fingers crossed*), so you can say it's sort of like a sequel. Sort of.

Here's the official MV to Pixie Lott's song:

An owl in the making...

2011-01-09T21:32:00.002+11:00

Nothing to post about lately. Well, not lately. It's been like this for a few months. Sorry for not updating more often guys.

An owl in the making...how? I'll tell you how - by sleeping at 6/7 am every day and wake up at 4pm.

Yes, that's what I'm doing. I simply don't know how to get back to being a normal HEALTHY human being =.=

Now I just feel like a zombie - moving and alive, but the mind is dead. Guess a human isn't supposed to become an owl.

Anyhow, that's all folks! See ya next time.

Love from Kay Al.

Lump-sum update...Again

2010-09-30T03:53:00.008+10:00

All right. Time for me to blabber.

22/9/2010:

It was mooncake festival. But I still had classes T.T And for that reason, I couldn't go to the Titanic Exhibition with my CTG friends. But, oh well, I met up with them after class (well, after 3 hours of "lepak-ing" in the city to be exact. Bought 5 blouses from Supre!), and had Peking duck dinner with them. We had at least 12 mooncakes of different flavours -- there's apple, mango, laici, chocolate, green tea, strawberry, etc. Didn't do any thing wild or particularly fun but we hung out at the park beside the Yarra River and "appreciate" the moon (赏月) after the dinner and went back around 11pm. We were talking about our dreams and interest and stuff. It's really a relaxing and happy way to spend the mooncake festival's day.

23/9/2010:

Went to the Royal Melbourne Show with my CTG friends. Rode on a super scary ride in the theme park section. I don't even understand why I agreed to go the ride =.= I don't even have the guts to ride on roller coaster and yet I went for one of the scariest rides in the carnival. Genius. Period.

This is the ride that I went on. No, idiot. Not the ferris wheel. It's the one that looks like a claw. The ride it's called Hard Rock. And it couldn't be more suitable. The claw didn't only give us a 360-degree-rotation, the whole thing swung almost a whole 360 degree, too! Man, I screamed like I was gonna die and I even cried. TT.TT I swore to never ride on anything like that again. EVER.

And then, miraculously, I ate lunch, even though I still felt sick and dizzy after the ride. Anyway, we went for the animal section and played with the bunnies, dogs, cats, etc. I fell in love with a Samoyed!!! There were tons of them in the carnival but I fell in love with a particular one. It was so friendly and cute to us (licking us, giving us its hand/paw, taking pictures with us, etc). I really wanna just grab him/her and run away!!

We watched a local band's performance around 7 (it's called Royal Parade. I HIGHLY recommend this band! Their songs are awesome. They have a myspace and Facebook fan page so check them out!), and then we rode on the ferris wheel (exactly at 7.30pm) to watch the fireworks but didn't get to because for some reason there weren't any fireworks that time. However, the fireworks show started just when we were leaving. T.T But we still got to see some of the fireworks on the train while waiting for it to depart.

I went home around 9pm while the others had dinner at the city. I was so darn tired that I just wanted to skip classes the next day. Fortunately, I didn't give in to the little devil's voice in my head. XD

25/9/2010:

Went to Hollywood karaoke bar at 1pm. Sang for 5 hours before we left for tea. Hung out at Easy Cafe -- drinking bubble tea, talking about our love (and sex) experience (for some odd reason). Man, I think I'm the only virgin among them. LOL!

And then, it's dinner time. We had japanese cuisine and I tried Yukke for the first time. It's so addictive! Love it!

After that, I had another first -- had a drink with my girl friends at a bar (called Cho Gao). We talked about so many things when we were playing Truth or Dare (without the Dare). We left at around 12 midnight.

This is the interior of the bar/lounge. It's an Ancient-China-modern mix of style. Pretty cozy in there, too. You can literally fall asleep on the comfy cushioned chairs.

26/9/2010:

Had "Pan Mee" at my cousin's house. It was really an excuse to go to his house. The main reason was to see my newborn nephew. He was only approximately 2-week-old. He was so small and delicate and fragile-looking that I didn't have the guts to hold him. LOL! And he looked just like his older brother when he was around his age.

27/9/2010:

Went shopping at DFO with my sis for my CTG's PPP (Post Production Party) outfit. Shopped for a whole 5-hour and the result was >>> got 2 RipCurl bags, a present for my friend's birthday (which I entirely forgot until I bumped into a friend who reminded me of that), and 4 new blouses. BUT no PPP outfit.

And I'm still looking for it when PPP is this Friday. I'm so screwed.

That's the end of my lengthy post. See ya ^^

Love at first sight

2010-09-01T00:49:00.004+10:00

Right, so as the title suggests, this post is about my "love first at sight".

I was chatting with my high school buddies on Plurk when my girl friend mentioned she had experienced a love at first sight last year. (LOL if you are reading this, I guess you should know that I'm talking about you, girl XD)

Well, that sort of reminded me of MY love at first sight. I've only experienced this unfathomable, unreasonable feeling once. When I was in college. There was this guy that went to the same college as me, but in a different course. I was in SAM and he was in Cambridge A Level. So how did I know him? On the bus.

So after a semester break (erm... I think that's what you call it), I went to college by bus as usual, and being super sleepy as usual, too. (I had to wake up at 5am to catch the bus!! zzzz) As I was about to doze off on the bus, this guy appeared at the door of the bus. I have to admit. He's not super handsome or anything along the lines. He's just like any other average guy walking down the streets. Wasn't tall, average build...But there's just something about him that attracted my attention.

After he came, I never slept on the bus again. LOL~ 'cause I seriously couldn't stop staring at him! And I even tried to take a picture of him when he wasn't looking!! Yes, I was about to become a stalker. No wait. I DID become a stalker, 'cause I think I got one blurrish photo of him while he was on the bus. Hahaha...

I remembered I read an article somewhere on the internet and it said that the object of your love at first sight doesn't have to be handsome/pretty. He/she can be super average but when you see him/her, your heart will skip a beat, you couldn't stop looking at him/her, and you'll want to know him/her more. That's exactly my case here.

I had wanted to talk to him but in the end, all I got to know was which course he was in, and I didn't find that out from him. I don't even know his name still!!! Oh well...there's nothing I can do about it now. I haven't seen him since I graduated from that college.

But I do hope to see him again in the future.

Haha...Just wanted to post something random ^^

How Google Chrome was born

2010-08-30T23:08:00.003+10:00

Source: http://www.oneweb20.it/12/09/2008/google-sfida-microsoft-con-chrome/

LOL I just find this cute ^^

Empty

2010-08-30T22:18:00.003+10:00

I really hate myself for feeling like this. Seriously. I just can't get it off me.

I've never had this kinda feeling before I came to Melbourne, though. Not really.

I don't really know how to put it into words. I'm not happy. Not sad or angry, just...not happy. But the problem is really that I don't even know what I'm not happy about. How am I suppose to fix this when I don't even know the source of my unhappiness???

I can be with tons of friends, fooling around, enjoying some girl time, laughing out loud...but I'll just suddenly stop smiling or I'll just smile on the outside. It's like I couldn't bring myself to open up completely to my new friends. I guess this is what they called feeling alone in a crowd.

And I kinda start feeling this distance between me and my old buddies. Which sucks. Big time.

That might be a contibuting factor to my uneasiness. But I don't really think that's THE reason. I guess what I'm saying is...I'm feeling this emptiness in me. It's like a part of me is missing. And I don't know what it is.

I wanted to stop thinking nonsensical stuff when I should be focusing on my studies, which I REALLY should and need to, since I shamelessly failed a unit last semester.

If there really is a God up there, please answer my prayers.

Bizarre dreams~

2010-08-26T14:09:00.001+10:00

Okay, so a couple of days ago, I had this super weird dream. I dozed off on my bed when I was studying for a test. When I woke up, I didn't remember immediately what I dreamt. I didn't even remember I had dream!

But then, everything started coming back to me when I was having a shower in the morning. I could only remember a scene from the dream, but that was enough to blow me away.

I was kissing. Someone who I have absolutely NO IDEA who the hell he is. And on top of that, I could actually FEEL the kiss!!! I remember how it felt like when our lips touched!!

Why am I so shocked, you may ask. Well, frankly...I'VE NEVER KISSED BEFORE! So how the hell could the kiss be so real if I've never experienced a kiss before??

The first reaction I had when I remembered the feeling was...YUCK! It's just...EWWWW~ Maybe it's because he's someone I don't know. But...seriously...HUH?? What the hell was that?

I looked for the so-called "dream dictionary" online, and it said that dreaming of a kiss with a stranger represents I need to accept some yet-to-be-known aspects of myself, or something like that. LOL~ Like it makes any sense at all. =.=

Now that I mentioned this, I remember having a weird dream, an even more bizarre dream than this one, during high school. In that dream, I lived in the Ancient China. I was a noble or a concubine or some rich young lady. I was standing in a small pavilion on top of a waterfall with another girl. We were arguing about something and then, without warning, she stabbed me in the back with a knife. I can still remember how it felt like. I can still remember the feel of a cold blade stabbed into my back.

And after I was stabbed, I remembered I was trying to save myself by running away from her. And the first thing I could think of was to jump off the pavilion and into the water down below. The waterfall was so huge, and the pavilion was so high up on the waterfall, I couldn't even see the bottom. But still I jumped without hesitation. I still remember the feeling of endless falling. And that was when I woke up. I was so scared because I thought I was still in the dream. I even checked my back to see if there's really a knife there. But then I finally realised I was in reality again, but my heart was still thumping hard against my chest.

I laughed to myself for being fooled by a dream. Well, a nightmare to be exact. I still have goosebumps whenever I think about it. What's more surprising is that I can remember the dream's every detail even till this day. Perhaps it was too terrifying.

These are the only dreams that I could actually FEEL something. I usually couldn't even remember my dreams after I wake up.

Artwork update ^^

2010-08-22T19:12:00.000+10:00

Title: Saitou Hajime (shaded)

This one was completed quite some time ago. I haven't finish the "Four Princes of Hell", though. I still have a little bit of shading left.

Oh, in case it looks like some alien thing to you, the mark on his face is actually, well, blood. I know. It doesn't look like blood ><

Title: Chronic Misery

Yes, I like emo stuff. Gothic, sad, sorrow, etc. Can't help it. XD I didn't really intend to draw this nicely at first, though. I was only doodling out of boredom, sketching roughly. But then, it sort of turned out to be rather nice so I traced the sketch with pen and added some shading.

Title: ...Do I even need to tell you? LOL!

This is Aizen (in case my rendition of him is really poor to the point of him being unrecognisable). The super badass from Bleach. And my all-time favourite villain. XD He's really evil, and if I'm a guy, I would dislike him. But, I'M A GIRL. And let's be honest, what girl wouldn't drool over his evil-badass-sexiness??? LOL

My jaw dropped literally when I saw his transformation from a geeky-looking nice guy, to a SUPER HOT villain. He's handsome in a way completely different from the bishounen in shoujos. He's handsome in a kind of...MANLY way. His combed hair (with a lock of his hair dangling handsomely on his forehead), his evil smirk, his intense eyes, his clothes...everything of him shouts SEXY! XD

Okay, enough with the fangirl blabber. ^^

(P.S.: I just couldn't get enough of him!! I think I'm in love. Definitely. XD)

Gloomy Friday

2010-07-30T16:03:00.000+10:00

Today was immensely painful for me to live through the day. I guess I've been totally alone too long since my friends went back to Malaysia. Being alone means freedom, and it's nice. But sometimes, it's just plain scary. I'm scared of myself, sometimes, when I'm alone. Today was that kind of a day. Weird, bizarre thoughts just kept flowing into my mind, what-ifs and what not. Those thoughts ALWAYS evolve around love and romance and finding The One.

I started thinking about my first boyfriend (?), or perhaps the only one I would ever have in my loveless life. I started thinking about how I'm the only one among my friends who hasn't found someone worth loving and staying with. My first boyfriend doesn't really count as my boyfriend at all, if I think about it. We've never kissed or even been on a date (thank God for that, though. Not worth wasting my first kiss on a jerk). Yes, I've never kissed someone before, and I'm already 20 this year. But that's not the point. The main point is that I've never really fell in love with anyone! Crushes, yes, but they never get to last more than 3 months. Sometimes I found myself forcing myself to fall in love with someone, just to be in love and feel the love. Pitiful, really.

I know I'm still not mature and not capable of loving someone's inside and not outside. Well, I wanted a perfect man with both loveable inside and outside (duh! all girls want that kinda man). But I know perfectly well he's not EVER going to appear before me. Because he doesn't even EXIST. Even if he does exist, he would be absolutely out of his mind to like me at all, let alone falling in love with me. I'm not pretty. Not gonna say I'm ugly, because that would've been too demotivating for my fragile self-esteem. But I'll admit I'm not pretty in anyway. Or cute, for that matter.

Let's see...Flat, big nose; acne-prone skin; small, unattractive eyes; fat, round face; no cheekbones; short stature; no boobs; not skinny; no curves to my body at all; tomboyish and not elegant at all; doesn't like to be protected because that would make me feel useless and helpless...Now, who would ever want to date a girl like me? All men look at a woman's body first, then her face, THEN her personality. Personality always come in last. It's sort of like a bonus to a hot body and a beautiful face. I understand where they're coming from, though. It's not like I'll set my eyes on someone utterly unappealing, outrageously average, like me. I am, and will always be, the "oh-I'm-bored-let's-date-her-and-kill-some-time" girl. That's what happened to my first so-called love.

I can't help but be jealous and envy of those who love someone and have that someone love them back. Me? I'm shallow and picky with guys, and guys just aren't attracted to me. Yep. My future is bright.

But, to tell the truth, I think I might have lost faith in guys. As if I don't trust them anymore. I can be friends with them, not a problem at all. But lovers? I don't know. Maybe, just maybe (not too sure myself), that this distrust has a tiny-bit to do with my first love. I mean, I thought I was loved, but in the end, he was just toying with me to kill time. That really hurt, when he's the first one that ever make me feel the butterflies in my stomach, make me feel embarassed to even look at him when we first talked, make me flushed like a tomato, and make my heart thumping so loudly whenever I was with him. It hurt. But I didn't cry even once, because I know he's not worth it.

And perhaps it's this kind of perception of mine that made me so repulsive against Twilight. I mean, Edward and Bella loves each other to death. But that never happens in real life. Most mangas use that kind of romance, too, but some of them have other elements (actions, mysteries, adventures, etc) that can make me disregard that kind of ridiculous romance plot. Funny, though. Because the novels I'm working on all have this kind of unrealistic love. Perhaps deep inside, I want to believe it exists.

I hate this me. Thinks too much of unnecessary things. I want to go back to my usual I-could-careless-about-everything-including-love self. Keep dwelling on my imperfections and my miserable love life is gonna hit my self-esteem with a fatal blow. I'm already unconfident enough, I don't need to hate myself, now.

New drawings~

2010-07-14T18:03:00.001+10:00

Title: Saitou Hajime (Shinsengumi)

I've just finished a late Edo period anime called "Hakuouki: Shinsengumi Kitan". Saitou Hajime is one of my favourites in the anime. He's my No.3, though. My No.1 favourite would be Okita Souji, and No.2 is Kazama Chikage. But why do I chose him to draw instead of the other two? It's largely due to his hair. He is the only one with long hair among the three. With his long hair, it would look so much more dramatic when he swings his katana, like what he's doing in the drawing. XDD I know. It's a ridiculous reason. LOL

No matter how much I wanna deny it, I suck at drawing action scenes. ><

Title: Four Crown Princes of Hell

They don't exactly look like devils, do they? LOL Well, the title is only an excuse for me to draw some bishounens, really. XDD

Read about them on some random Satanism websites. My favourite (I hope I'm not being offensive here) would be Lucifer, because he's the devil that appears the most times in the manga/anime world. Please keep in mind I'm not saying that (in real life) I like the Satan or something. No. There's nothing religion-related in that statement.

Anyway, the one sitting on the armchair is Satan; and then from left to right, Belial (b-lee-YAH-ahl), Leviathan (le-vai-athan) and Lucifer. The most difficult part to draw is the CHAIR!!! I was using a picture of a 19th century throne-like royal ornate armchair as the model, and the carvings on the chair are absolutely stunning!! And annoying at the same time XD This is my first try on furnitures. Let's just hope I have the will to draw another one again....LOL

These two are only the line arts. I'll be adding shadings soon. Don't intend to colour them, though. I want them to be in black-and-white.

Usque ad mortem

2010-07-03T22:42:00.000+10:00

My bleeding heart,
belonged only to you,
and you alone,
my Prince...

I had known,
that I belonged to you,
and you to me,
the moment you let me see
into the mirror of your gentleness.

My love for you,
gave me the courage to follow you,
to Heaven and Hell;
My love for you,
gave me the power to Perish
in your hands.

You, who had loved me,
who were willing to put me
into my eternal crimson sleep,
and entrapped me in your lovely glass bed;
This time,
will you love me enough
to sleep in my crimson bed in place of me,
and set me free,
and let me escape my eternal darkness?

My bleeding heart,
belongs only to you,
and you alone,
my sleeping Prince.

Till death do us part...

This poem is inspired by a short OVA series by Aniplex, called Le Portrait de Petit Cossette, aka コゼットの肖像 (Kozetto no Shouzou).

It has a very fresh, interesting (and creepy/twisted) plot. Basically, a beautiful girl fell in love with an artist in the 18th century and ironically, she was killed by him, and her spirit is trapped in a glass. The glass, after 3 centuries, is now kept in an antique store, where a college boy works as a part-timer. The boy is the only one who can see the girl trapped in the glass and he eventually fell in love with her. Twisted as it is, the boy is actually the reincarnation of the artist who murdered the girl. And to make it even more twisted, the only way for the girl to escape from the glass is to have a man who would love her enough to atone for the sins the artist had committed upon her (in short, murdering her). The boy, of course, is willing to do so for her. I haven't watched the last episode yet, so I'm not sure if he did sacrificed himself for her freedom in the end.

After reading the summary, I guess you (anyone who is reading this) would be able to (more or less) make out the meaning of the poem. I've also added some elements from Kaori Yuki's mangas and JJ Lin's song --- the Killa. So, 1) No, the "glass bed" in the poem is not the glass the girl is trapped in; 2) No, the artist back in 18th century did not love the girl (I think XD).

The title of this post is the title of this poem --- Usque ad mortem. "Till death..." in Latin, literally. Figuratively, it means "Till death do us part". I used Latin because Latin is often used as the language of the dead in stories and stuff, and it sounded cool?? LOL

I had fun writing this one, because it depicted such a twisted love (I mean, the girl still loves the artist, but also hates him enough to want to bring his reincarnation to death; and the "prince" in the poem had loved the girl enough to bring her to her "eternal sleep" and encased her in her "glass bed"). Nyahahaha~ I am so twisted XD

Death...

2010-07-03T22:14:00.000+10:00

Death,
has the eyes of the deepest darkness,
the hair of the silkiest silver,
the skin of the whitest snow,
in a dress of the most somber black;

But it shan't be fear'd,
or be an object of hatred,
For Death, is never the Evil;
It is a Beauty, a gift
from the Lord...

What is Heaven,
when there isn't Hell;
What is Life,
when there isn't Death?

This is a poem I wrote quite some time ago, for a drawing of a Gothic girl. I posted it on this blog before, but for the sake of this post, I'll post it again. So here it is~

Basically, the girl represents Death. The first stanza is the description of the girl in this drawing.

It's not some super great poem like the ones written by Edgar Allan Poe. I'm no where near his level, and I'll never be. But it's my first attempt to write a poem since the last time I wrote for a high school assignment.

Hope it doesn't sound too cheesy XD

Twisted~

2010-07-03T20:45:00.000+10:00

An idea descended upon me last night when I was lying on my bed, eyes half closing and was about to fall asleep. It suddenly came to me in a flash.

I have this superb urge to start a story based on this idea. But when I think about it, I still have 4 novels on hand, unfinished!! (><)

Okay, now you might be thinking "Stop the blabbering. So what the hell was on your mind?!!!"

Well, it's simple --- the victim falls in love with the perpetrator. To be more specific, what if a girl is to be stalked by a disturbed man, haunting her in every imaginable creepy way, but in the end, she falls in love with the man who loves her more than anything else, the man who is none other than the stalker himself??

I've always have a thing for forbidden love or twisted love. The more twisted it is, the better. Something like the relationship between the Phantom and Christine in the Phantom of the Opera film (the relationship is a little different in the novel); or something like "you fall in love with a beautiful, perfect Prince Charming, and even though he's twisted/bitter/psycho and you're afraid of him, you still couldn't help but love him". Perhaps such fetish is a reflection of the part of me (unbeknownst to others) that is so very much in love with Gothic arts --- architecture, arts, novels, poems, songs, fashion, etc.

Gerard Butler as the Phantom; Emmy Rossum as Christine Daae

I couldn't recall any stalker-related stories that ends with the stalked victim falling in love with the stalker. Well, not that I know. I'll admit that I don't really read much.

That night, when the idea came to me, I was happy but at the same time, frustrated. I'm not a good writer and I always have the habit to not finish what I've started. But new ideas just wouldn't stop coming to me!! Every now and then I'll get this new idea, and when I was about to start doing something about it, I often found myself losing the desire to complete it. I really want to finish an idea for once!! I've decided to at least finish my favourite work out of the 4 novels that I'm working on --- Blood Moon. I really like the story.

The other three novels...well, I wanted to finish them, too, but I know I couldn't. I wouldn't have the time. I know I'm being too greedy to work on so many stories all at once. I've been thinking of abandoning one of the two Chinese stories in the four because the more I think about it, the more I'm dissatisfied with the plot and the characters development.

The other Chinese story, though, I really love the plot, too, just that I NEVER read story books in Chinese, so I don't have many words in my vocab vault (and I've already forgotten most of the Chinese vocabs I learned during high school). Therefore, I'm thinking of converting it into a manga, since 1) I've always wanted to start my own manga; 2) the story fits for a manga; 3) I've designed the characters and their weapons and clothes and all that, so...why not?

Anyhow, that's all for this post. I really just wanted to tell somebody about this crazy, sick, twisted idea of a romance. (Well, who in the right mind would fall in love with a psychotic man who's been stalking you?) Ciao~

Lump-sum update

2010-06-07T14:12:00.000+10:00

Oookayyy~ I haven't been posting much nowadays. I'm just not that kind of person that would update blogs regularly. すみません～

I'm having exams starting this Thursday so I won't be drawing/blogging/writing for awhile. TT.TT

Anyways, I'm gonna post up my recent work. So, have a look and tell me what you think ^^

I haven't been designing clothes in such a long time!! Well, I haven't been designing normal-daily-life clothes to be exact. The characters I drew were always wearing fantastical clothing. Not so much as fashion designing. In the fashion world, those fantastical clothing I drew are considered costumy. And I don't want that. I have to think like a fashion designer while I'm designing, not floating off to my manga fantasy. Well, I can still add some fastastical elements in my designing as my personal touch. After all, you have to be different and unique to stand out in the fashion industry. =]

By the way, these clothes are based off 17th century's men and women's fashion.

Right, so after all my blabbering, here's the coloured version. I love how the military jackets turned out!! The navy sleeveless jacket is based on 17th century military men's jacket, while the red jacket is based on 17th century women's riding habit (as some of you may know, the riding habit is also based on men's military/everyday clothing at that time).

And the creamy-blue lace dress, well...I wanted it to be 17th-centurish but I thought it looks like some Roman goddess dress 0.o And the girl has golden blond hair, which makes it even more so~ Her shoes, however, I like it XD It's also based on 17th/18th century women's shoes. Back then, women loved their shoes to be decorated with jewelries, flowery patterns, etc (IMO). Sometimes their shoes looked more like some treasure from a hidden treasure chest instead of walking shoes! To put it simply, they chose fashion over comfort, as are the girls in 21th century. (Looking at their shoes, I wonder how they even managed to walk!)

In this picture, I added some flowery effects on it with photoshop. I don't know why but as days gone by, I like to stuff up my drawings with lots of small details/effects/etc more and more! And I like to draw my characters in a kind of gothic way. I guess I am pretty much influenced by CLAMP (small details) and Yuki Kaori (gothic drawing style).

Understood what I mean now? LOL The characters just somehow emits the gothic aura. And realise how I've never drawn those typical shoujo cutesy/crybaby/innocent girls before? One of the reason is, of course, Yuki Kaori (her girls always have this "cool" feeling about them), the other reason is that I seriously hate that kind of girls. Too whimpy and useless. I cannot take people like that even in real life. So I'm very much put off by people like that. TOO dependent and clingy. Always waiting for their prince/knight in shining armor to save them. Too much of a damsel in distress. (No offense. If I'm being to rude/harsh, I'm really sorry. It's just who I am.)

I coloured the drawing with colour pencils. I'm not good with digital colouring AND water colour, so...Hehe~

This picture is just my random sketches. Well, not entirely random. I'm planning on starting a new novel/manga/haven't-decided-yet so I drew some characters. But the thing is, I don't know which one to choose as the main character!! So if any of you are reading this, can you help me choose a guy and a girl from the selections? I would really appreciate it if you let me know about your opinion.

Anyway, my personal favourite guy is the guy with slightly combed short hair (the first guy on the right, without the ponytail). And although I like the girl with long curly hair in the center, I actually wanted to have my female lead a strong/mature, soft but sort of kick ass appearance. Like the one on the left with wavy shoulder-length hair. LOL I'm too specific, ain't I? Well, it's because I wanted to set my characters in university-age (I don't wanna do another teenage storyline ><).

So, that's about it. See ya guys after my finals! *Peace*

I don't know anymore...

2010-04-18T01:49:00.000+10:00

It's not the first time I felt this way --- being left out of everyone's life, aren't able to get close to new friends, nobody just give a damn about me. I might have read too much into things, I admit doing that sometimes, but this feeling has been inside me for a long time and I'm about to reach my limit. People would think that not telling details or moments about their lives to others is fine, but I'm the kind of person that likes to be part of someone's life. I want to have friends that would share their experience with me --- sadness, happiness or the secret crush they have on someone. I understand people want to keep some things private (I understand that perfectly well). But I'm always the last to know things, even about my family and friends. It makes me feel like I don't belong in their lives. And to make things worse, I get the feeling that my old friends are drifting away from me. I know I'm about to lose some of them already. I can see the signs. I hated myself for being so clingy to my friends because in the end, I'm the one who's gonna be left alone.

And what I'm doing now with my future doesn't make me feel any better. I thought I could continue in fulfilling my parents expectation of me becoming an accountant without any hesitation. But recently, I'm not so sure anymore. I hate accounting more and more everyday. In fact, I don't like studying at all. I'm not saying it as in an elemantary school kid saying she doesn't want to go to school because she doesn't like mathematics or whatever; I'm saying this because I know I'm not of bookworm-quality. I don't like having to do things that I don't like and I have to be good at it and force myself to like it. Everyday, I would dream of dropping out of my course now and go to a fashion design or art school, where I can fulfill MY dreams. This desire become harder to suppress day after day. But when ever I tell the people around me about it, they'll unanimously tell me "Don't think too much. Just stick to whatever that's safe. Fashion design is not useful at all." IT'S MY LIFE!! SO WHY THE FUCK CAN'T I TAKE CONTROL OVER IT???

I hate being kept in a cage! Yes, I know there's a possibility that I won't survive in the fashion industry, with so many talented designers out there; but if I don't even try to go for my dreams, I'll regret about it my whole life!

At this exact moment, I really just want to pack up and leave everything behind, and start over. I always tell my friends that I really want to try backpacking around Europe. They may think I was only saying that because I like Europe or that I like to travel; NO. I'm being serious. I wanna get away from everything. I wanna be free from confinement and be a nomad, and hopefully find my place. I'm sick of being a nobody to everyone.

Life after leaving behind my dear friends...

2010-02-23T17:19:00.000+11:00

After arriving in Melbourne, I had to help my sister to move things to her new place, which is only a few blocks away from the old place. My parents and I were staying at the new place for the last week while my sister and her fiance stayed at the old place until last saturday.

We went to china town on the first day of Chinese New Year. This would be the second time I celebrated CNY in Melbourne, away from my friends. There were more than six shops having lion dances in front of their shop. Everyone stopped to watch and take pictures, and actually caused traffic jams! The people flooded the entire china town and the streets near it until trams had to stop halfway because some people (mostly people from China) crossed the streets without bothering about the vehicles AT ALL! And the firecrackers...Man! We had to shout to each other when we talked. Imagine all the shops with chinese owners burned firecrackers at the same time. I could hear them 3 blocks away! After all the amazement and hassle, the streets were full of residues from the firecrackers...small strips of red paper and the smell of sulphur filled up the streets. But...even though I missed my friends and disappointed for not being able to hang out with them, it made it all worth while. It wasn't a bad CNY for me.

We went to a temple around our place afterwards. GODSSS!! I was practically scratching out my hair when I saw the temple/joss house. It was a 300-year-old mansion!!!!!!! And it was a beautiful mansion to top it off. It looked like the mansion in Walt Disney's Haunted Mansion, with the high iron gate and fences, tainted glass windows, spiral staircase and fireplaces. It was built exactly in 1800. Gah! What a waste! They even used the fireplace to burn those chinese papers (I don't know what the hell they are called. Chinese normally burned those papers in temples after putting on the josses and red candles).

And then, on 21 Feb, I went on a trip with my family and my sister's fiance to an 1870s mansion. It was absolutely beautiful! The only setback was it wasn't big enough (for me, that is) and I wasn't able stay in the mansion for a night...T.T I heard the land used to be 13,000 acres! But it was being cut down to over 1000 acres. Took lots of pictures of the building and the decorations, especially the carvings, windows and chandeliers. The chandeliers were gorgeous and the carvings in the whole mansion are pure gold! Jesus...

On 22 Feb, that was the first day of the orientation. The programs were boring but I met really interesting friends! That made my day...I met a postgraduate student from China, 2 first year students from China (too), an American girl who plays the flute (OMG! I absolutely admire her! I've always admire people who can play the flute. It gives out a really beautiful and elegant melody. If I have the time after learning both the violin and piano, I might consider learning it XD), and 2 first year students from Japan! I was so damn happy to get to meet Japanese! They're Yoshida Maki and Komoto Ryota (I think that's his name. Maki is a really cute girl! And Ryota looks like the chinese movie star "Chen Kun" -- handsome! XD Well he's not the only guy that I thought is handsome. There was also a guy I met during enrolment, with sunny blond hair and dreamy blue eyes. Huhhh~ He's like a prince charming walking straight out from a fairytale XD)

And for 23 Feb (that's today), I met a 2nd year student during my course briefing. Not really sure where he came from. All I know is that he's a chinese that only speak english and can't speak chinese at all and he's not from Malaysia, which I find it strange since he's english is kinda *ahem*. LOL~ He's really nice and friendly, though. And then I went for a library briefing which surprised me with the activities they had for us. We had a mini amazing race in the library! I was in a team with 3 Indonesian postgraduates and another chinese girl. And guess what...I was the team leader (unwillingly). We actually won the 1st prize and got ourselves a Monash thumbdrive, a Monash pen and *loud dramatic music* a small box of Guylian chocolate each!!!! It was the best library briefing I'd ever gone to (and I was dead tired afterwards).

Before I went home, I walked around the lemon scented lawn (yes, the lawn really smells like thousands of lemons) where the O-week carnival is, and signed up for the clubs. I signed up for the Malaysian union (duh~), Anime club (again, duh~ people who are close to me should expect that XD), Japanese club and the CHOIR!!!! I get to sing!! Oh, I've also signed up for a show choir (from another music club. Clayton has more than 4 clubs for music), something like the TV show "Glee". It isn't confirm yet as the club is waiting for as many people as possible to sign up in order to REALLY have the show choir. I actually planned to join the Kendo club, too. But the monthly fees is AUD50 and I have to buy the bamboo sword which cost another AUD35. What's more, they practice from 6-8pm. That's too late for me. If I go for the practice, I can only be home on 9 something. Will be dead tired and I still have classes the next day! And the money I have spend...I thought it's better for me to save the money and pay for my violin lessons instead (if I can get a teacher at all). I like kendo, but I think it will have to wait until I graduate (when I get a job and can pay for the fees with my own money).

Tonight, I would most probably have an amazing night. We are going to play mahjong!!!! Haha...I'm super excited and looking forward to it. =]

I'll miss you guys...

2010-01-31T22:14:00.000+11:00

January 30th, I was out from 1 pm till 11 pm. It was an outing with my high school friends to Sunway Pyramid as my farewell. We sang in Red Box for 5 hours and had dinner at Che Go. Took lots of pictures, and my buddies bought me some things from Body Shop, including a Cherry Blossom perfume (ahh~ I love it! Pardon my selfishness peeps, I know I shouldn't choose something expensive as my present). Even though I was the "star" of the day, there were another two people who were in the spotlight -- Brian and Pamela. LOL~ The sweet, lovey-dovey couple sang Jolin and David Tao's love song while cuddling on the couch.

And I got to express my recent fanaticism for Bleach!! I'd been talking about it for almost an hour with my BFF. I'm lucky to have friends that grew up and have the same interests as me. Oh! And they gave a card with all of their names and things they wanted to say to me on it. Frankly, I was so touched. I didn't cry and didn't seem one bit surprise or anything in front of them. But I wanted to tell my peeps, I had read it for millions of times, with a smile on my face. I promise I'll bring it with me when I go over Melbourne.

After this outing, I realised that I will miss my high school buddies very, very, VERY much! Man, don't make me feel like this...I'm scared that I'll be unable to leave you guys. I hope our friendship last forever and ever. I'll be sure to come back as often as I can to see you guys. And please, go on MSN more often so I can chat with you guys.

Thanks, everyone. Chin Yee, Pui Mun, Fui Teng, Hoe Keat, Wai Hoe, Hui Xin, Huei Min, Tien Yew, Yong Shen, Khai Wei, Pik Khei and Jeffrey. I love you guys!! (I can't believe I just said that. That was so not me XD)

The girls~ (from left to right) Huei Min, Khai Wei, Chin Yee, Me, Pik Khei, Pui Mun (aka Pamela aka Pergi Pasar Malam XD)

Jeff and me...Ji mui forever!!! ;]

My bodyguards XD (left to right) Wai Hoe, Me, Hoe Keat, Shen Ee aka Yong Shui Lou, Yong Shen.

Yong Shen, Me, Huei Min...well, even though you two left early, thanks for coming!

Tien Yew, me. First time we took a picture together. Hopefully not the last time =]

LOL~ I love this picture so much! Shen Ee!!! XD (Pui Mun, Jeff, Shen Ee).

Pui Mun, Me, Chin Yee...Wow, it's been awhile since we last took a trisome picture together. BF Forever!!

The couple singing love song~!! Ahh~ so sweet XD

Chin Yee, Me, Fui Teng aka Fui Fui, Hui Xin, Pui Mun, Hoe Keat...Eating BBQ and steamboat at Che Go.

Dead tired~

2010-01-11T04:09:00.000+11:00

I went to Sunway Lagoon with Pui Mun, Wai Hoe, Shen Ee and Khai Wei on January 9th. Yeah, I know I'm kinda late with the posts these days but...I didn't even want to move an inch of my aching body (from all the "exercise") after I've reached home last night!!! Not to mention the mosquito's bites and slight sun burn I got.

We started playing in the amusement and water parks at around 11 in the morning and we only left for dinner when we were literally being shoo-ed away by the security/life guards of the park. In other words, we'd been playing for 7 hours straight! No kidding! We only rested for less than 20 minutes just to have a quick lunch.

I really missed the water slides, the "snake head" water roller coaster, and last but not least, the WAVE POOL!!! Man, we were playing like nuts in the water park. We just couldn't bare to walk away from the water. I even lost count of how many times we'd played on the water slides. And the wave pool is priceless. I had fun trying to get myself being washed back on shore by the waves XD

Our arms and legs were sore and kinda painful from climbing all the stairs that lead to the rides and slides (because we're playing them repeatingly) and also from carrying the heavy big-fat-yellow floats (in order to play on the water slides). Most of the fun was in water park, amusement park has more rides for the young children than for young adults EXCEPT for the "180+ degree swinging pirate ship" (seriously, it's a direct translation from Chinese, I don't know what it's called in English) and the short but SUPER terrifying roller coaster.

Pui Mun and I thought it would be fun to go for the "dry" roller coaster before going to the "snake head" water roller coaster. We, of course, knew it would be a little scary ('cause we'd ridden on it 4 years ago) but we never thought it could be THAT scary. We remembered we weren't that terrified the last time we rode it! Maybe we're getting old and we can't take the thrill?? XD Pui Mun was horrified until she couldn't scream at all, and me, I was just screaming like I was going to die...literally. It's all because of the double fall/drop/or whatever you call it. When the roller coaster flew down I-don't-know-how-many-metres the first time, we were already screaming like hell. But before we could recover from the fall, it immediately flew down again!!! The second fall was even longer and more terrifying than the first! It was during the second fall that Pui Mun actually went numb and petrified. I was sitting next to her screaming like a psycho. The feeling of losing the gravity and sorta floating during the falls, I can't quite describe it in words. It's like my heart had stopped and left my body, and I felt like I couldn't take it anymore and I would die from the fear. We vowed to NEVER EVER ride on that thing again. Now I know how Chin Yee felt and why she was screaming at me hysterically (during the ride) when I dragged her to ride on it with me 4 years ago. LOL~

The water roller coaster was A LOT less scary, of course, as the main point of the ride is to get splashed by water XD We rode 3 times straight! It still has the classic roller coaster super-speed falls. It also has two falls like the roller coaster before but we weren't terrified until our legs were shaking when we got off (I'm not kidding here). We actually enjoyed getting wet and the adrenaline rush from the super-speed falls.

We went for dinner at Full House in Sunway Pyramid before we went home. Oh, how I love the restaurant! It's decorated in all-white 19th century furnitures and accessories (it still have the decorations from Christmas, so it gave the feeling of a white Christmas =D, which I like) with a boutique at the back and a gift shop in the front. Not to mention the food is kinda nice and special, too.

I really had a fun and thrilling day with my friends. That's exactly what I want before I leave for Melbourne to further my studies. Love ya guys~ *muackzzz*

A surprising surprise

2010-01-06T13:07:00.000+11:00

I remember I had a post back in October about a guy that I know since kindergarten and that I believe that I'll see him again someday. Well, that "again" was two days ago, January 4th. I really wanted to post about it on that day but I was too busy with settling the things for studying abroad.

What happened was Chin Yee and I went for lunch at Sushi Zanmai after watching Avatar. We had been there for almost an hour and a half and I only realised that HE was working there when we were about to leave. I was all shocked and my mind went blank. In my head, there were only OMGs. I was too nervous to even look him in the eyes!! He was the cashier and Chin Yee was paying, and me??? I just stood in front of him but turned side way facing Chin Yee instead. I couldn't even breathe at that moment!

It's been such a long time since the last time I had this kind of feeling and that it was so intense that I did stupid, clumsy things...Arghh~ I hate myself!

A Tiring but FUN New Year's Eve!

2010-01-01T15:53:00.000+11:00

Hey, guys! First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! =]

*Phew* I just came back from Hotel Sri Petaling, where I celebrated the end of 2009 and the New Year's Eve with my 6 high school old buddies. HX, SE, CH, HK, WH, HM...thanks for a lovely and NOISY night! Haha. We went there around 7 PM and hung around in the warehouse sales next door for awhile before having "Luk Luk" for dinner (my fellow chinese malaysians should know what it is). We bought TONS of junk food and a whole big container (as big as the ones for cooking oil) of mineral water at The Store and brought it back to the room so we can eat later. Then, we just spent the whole night eating the snacks while playing games. Monopoly (I went broke ><), poker (Chor Dai "D"), checkers and Uno!!! I hadn't play these games since high school. How I missed them so much...=D

We played until after the fireworks were over (we didn't go for countdown but we still got to see fireworks from 5 different spots just outside our hotel room's window!!! We were so lucky!) And someone on the TV and Benjamin Button just popped into the screen. CH and me were like "STOP!! It's Benjamin Button!! Forget everything else and just watch the movie!" That's how the 7 of us settled down on the beds and watched it quietly. Too quiet that I almost fell asleep. XD But WH beat me to it. He was fast asleep right from when we started watching the movie! We started chatting half way through the movie, about America and its people and some marriage-sex questions that CH popped out of nowhere...

And then, when I thought we were finally going to sleep after the movie finished (at 3 AM!), we suddenly decided to go for the "mamak" nearby. We actually woke up WH (forcefully) for that. XD

And so we ended up sleeping at almost 5 in the morning! And imagine, 7 people sharing 2 single beds...We had to pull out the mattresses and some of us had to sleep on the board thingy (where the mattresses used to be on). I was one of them. It was a NIGHTMARE!! The "bed" was so damn hard and on top of that, it was damn cold in the room! So, all of us only slept for 2-3 hours (woke up on 7 AM), except for WH (he got to sleep peacefully and SNORING on the comfy mattress) and CH (poor guy, he couldn't sleep at all because of HX who was sleeping next to him XD).

I was woken up by CH, HK and SE. They're such devils! Wouldn't let me continue sleeping after they woke up! And then we, together, went and disturbed HM's beauty sleep. CH was actually recording the sound that WH made --- he was SNORING so loudly! And we laughed and laughed until we finally woke him up, too. We really were devils as we just couldn't help but disturbed people who were fast asleep! XDD And we conveniently started fighting for the blankets (because it's so cold no matter how low we'd set the temperature to), had pillow fights and simply lay on each other (like, my feet on CH, CH feet on SE's face, SE sleeping on WH's lap, etc).

We went for breakfast at the near by Hailam Coffee Shop and then continued playing games for the remaining 2 hours until we have to checkout at 12PM. I played "Chor Dai D" with SE and HM. My luck had finally came back to me because I got to win them so many times (4-5 times I think)! LOL~ I was so happy.

After that, it was time to go home. >< But I had a fun time with them. To my buddies, thanks for a fun and, I quote, SLEEPLESS night!! Haha.

Xmas Eve & Xmas

2009-12-26T02:16:00.000+11:00

I started my Xmas Eve with sleeping for only 3 hours. It was my own fault actually. I slept at 7 in the morning and had to wake up on 10 AM for medical examination for my student visa. I promised my friends to arrive at Red Box @ The Gardens by 11.30 AM but I ended up arriving an hour later. I am so sorry. The medical examination was delayed for a little. So I only got to sing for 2 & 1/2 hours while the boys - Jeff, Choon How, Brian (the birthday boy. Yes, his birthday is on Xmas Eve) got to sing for 3 hours. Well, I wasn't the only one who's late. Chin Yee was late, too. So we went in together. I was practically running (walking REALLY fast) from Mid Valley carpark all the way to Red Box. I was totally out of breath when I finally reached the karaoke room where the boys were in. LOL~

And then, after singing for awhile, we brought in a Black Forest as a surprise for the birthday boy! We sang him the birthday song and I playfully sang that in Korean (Saengil chukha hamnida, saengil chukha hamnida~). Haha. It was fun even though Choon How and I sang until we actually lost our voice!! I talked like a man (a deep, husky voice) after that. XD

After that, we watched Sherlock Holmes. It was nice. Funny, too! Love Robert Downey Jr. and Jude Law. They made a great pair! XD Before we went home at 9 PM, we had dinner at Pasta Zanmai and I got to eat my favourite dish (fried soft shell crab) and try out yasai miso soup. I got to buy a tube of Gummy Choco and ate omochi ice cream from Shojikiya, too, which is right next to Pasta Zanmai.

What made me laughed out loud was that Choon How tried to give me a piggyback when I couldn't see a performance at Mid Valley (the crowd was full of men. Why? Because the performers were girls in short-skirt costumes).

All in all, it was a fun Xmas Eve.

On Xmas, I went to Daidomon in the Great Eastern Mall for japanese buffet with my parents and my cousin and aunt. The food was okay. Not great, though. But the price was affordable and that's the most important thing. LOL~

Anyways, merry christmas and happy new year to everyone!!

Hachikou: The Loyal Man's Best Friend

2009-12-18T08:55:00.000+11:00

As I was writing this, my eyes were still redden and swollen from crying, my nose were still running and it was hard to breathe. I can't quite remember the last time I was crying so hard that my voice became shaky, my throat tightened until it was difficult for me to breathe and tears just wouldn't stop flowing out from my eyes even if I wanted to. I think I had stopped crying like that after I went to high school.

This would be the first time ever that I cried in such a way over a story I read from Wikipedia and a movie trailer. I haven't even seen the movie yet. A film, Hachiko: A Dog's Story (starring Richard Gere), was released in 2009. It wasn't released in Malaysia, though. It's a pity because I really wanna see it. But I saw the trailer when I was simply changing the channels on the TV. I stopped when I knew that the movie is about a dog (I always enjoy shows and films that involve dogs). The trailer didn't even last for 3 minutes and I was already so touched by it and tears started flowing out of my eyes. But it was just like any other normal reaction after seeing a touching scene in a movie --- just a few drops of tears.

However, I got so curious about the star of the film, the dog, I went and read the story of Hachikou. It was a real life story. Hachikou was a pet and best friend of a professor (Ueno Hidesaburou) back in 1920s. He was one of the members of the beautiful breed, Akita Inu. He had stayed with the professor since the day he took him in, even after the death of the professor. In the morning, he would see his owner off at the front door and wait for him to come home at the Shibuya Station in the evening. This routine continued everyday until May 1925, when the professor never come back and see Hachikou at the station like he usually did. But Hachikou kept waiting, even after he was sent off to another owner. He would escaped routinely to his old home, the professor's house, and wait at the front door. Eventually, he knew the professor would not come home and so he went to the station to wait every evening. He would show up exactly the time when the train arrives. The professor never appeared, not because he abandoned Hachikou, but because he suffered a stroke and died before he could go home to Hachikou on that faithful day.

Hachikou kept going to the station and the frequent commuters at the station would feed him as they know he was waiting for his owner who would never come back again. The routine continued for 10 years until he finally died in 1935. He was found on the street on the way to the Shibuya Station.

I was crying the entire time when I read the article on Wikipedia. I've never cried over a story or an article as hard as this time before. The fact that touches me the most is that Hachikou died with his owner still in his mind and he was still waiting for the professor to come home. Words simply cannot describe the feeling I'm having now. It's really such a shame that some people never appreciated the loyalty and faithfulness of the man's best friends, by actually abandoning them on the street or abusing them.

The story of Hachikou just made me love dogs even more than I already do.

Brown Eyed Girls - Sign MV and Morse code ???

2009-12-15T00:46:00.000+11:00

I fell in love with the beat of the song =] It's so catchy and addictive, especially the "dot-dot-dot-dot" part. The "dots" are merely punctuations to express the frustration and desperation of the singers who couldn't get the man they love to understand their feelings. However, some people started the Morse-code-theory. 2 long dots and 3 short dots represent "7" in Morse code but I don't know if that number really do mean "help". I've searched everywhere but there is not even one source that suggests 7 = Help. Or may be I'm just not resourceful enough XD

But the song does make use of a well-known distress signal --- Mayday. No, it does not mean the 1st of May or Labour Day or whatever in this case. It means "HELP". I read some of the comments when I was looking for this video, and I just can't take those people that kept on giving wrong information regarding the "mayday" and the "dot-dot-dot-dot" thinking they know everything. But it's not like I can fully understand the music video, though. I mean, the main guy was fighting the minions of the "Devil in suit" (LOL that's what I named him) at the beginning, which were controlled by the devil. And then, the Devil just started killing off his own minions and even gave a weapon to the main guy to kill himself??!! And then, there's the blind-in-one-eye thing. What's the point of putting it in the story? LOL and it somehow reminds me of Syaoran from Tsubasa Chronicles.

Anyhow, I still like this song very much. ;]

New work...again

2009-12-08T03:33:00.001+11:00

This is ME! Haha...People who are close to me will be thinking "Doesn't look like you at all!" I really can't draw my big flat nose (the part least similar to my actual facial features ><). I hate my nose~ XP And I'm wearing my signiture shirt (in the picture) --- Supergirl!!! *laughs at my own silliness*

I drew this a couple of hours before my 19th birthday on 5th of December. Sort of like a memory for the last few hours of being 18. Lol~ I know, I know...I'm making a big deal out of this. But I really do have the damn Peter Pan Syndrome --- I hate growing up. XD But...Oh, well. What can I do about that? I just need some time to get rid of that illness.

I meant to make this the cover of the first chapter of Blood Moon, but then I realised it's more suitable to be the cover for another chapter and since I haven't introduce Jack in the first chapter. I'm going to add the novel's title later (after I finished designing the title, that is). It didn't quite turned out the way I want and I still think it lacks something ><

2012 is good~

2009-11-29T16:12:00.000+11:00

OK...I meant the movie, not the end of the world. Just watched it yesterday (an hour after watching A Christmas Carol XD). To be honest, I AM a little nervous about the whole end-of-the-world thing. 12/12/2012 -- it's exactly a week after my 22nd birthday. I didn't imagine the apocalypse to be like how it's portrayed in 2012 the movie. I imagined it to be, like, the whole planet just vanished, gone, just like the other unknown stars in the universe. It will become dust and the dust will give birth to another new star. Lol~ Astronomy was my favourite chapter in my general science textbook back in high school.

The movie is good! As expected from the director of The Day After Tomorrow (it's one of my favourites). There were quite a number of scenes that I almost (ALMOST) cried. Haha~ I'm not exactly the type to cry out loud on movies. The scene on an estrange father calling his son right before his son and his family were killed really did touch my heart, even though they didn't get to talk over the phone at all. And there's one particular scene that made me and the other audiences in the cinema to REALLY laughed out loud -- the car scene. "Engine, start," said the damn-f**king-selfish-rich-Russian calmly to the car when Jackson (John Cusack) couldn't start the engine and everyone in the car were screaming and shouting in panic. My god! I really didn't expect such a funny scene at the midst of a matter-of-life-and-death scene. Whoever put that line in is a GENIUS.

There's a scene that shows Dr Helmsley complaining about how wide the rooms on the ships are that they could fit at least 10 people in each. It really does show how spoiled the rich people are. Prioritising their comfort and high class living instead of the lives of their fellow, poorer humans. Seriously, their money worth nothing more than a piece of paper in that kind of situation. "The moment we stop fighting for each other, that's the moment we lose our humanity."

The way the Russian millionaire's girlfriend (Tamara, I think), Sasha, Gordon and the US President die, Emmerich successfully brought out the feeling and the impact of their deaths, IMO.

I think the movie shows how Roland Emmerich imagined the end of the world to be, obviously. It's sort of like Noah's Ark, except there were 3-4 arks (or ships) instead of just one XD, and they're made in China. Haha... I give it a full 10 stars.

Big Bang - Koe wo Kikasete (Let Me Hear Your Voice)

2009-11-13T04:38:00.000+11:00

Oooooh~ I LOVE this song so much!!! It's so darn addictive. I have to listen to it at least 10 times a day! Lol~ Big Bang ROCKZZ~

It is the opening theme of a new J-Drama called "Ohitorisama". It's making me wanting to watch the series =]

Here's the video, romanised and translated lyrics.

Romanised

Sakki made no ame wa mou agatte
Asufaluto tadayou machi no nioi
Nee socchi mo mou hareteru yo ne
Nishi kara kaifuku surutte
Asa wa negate na kimi dakara nee
Mainichi chanto okirareteru kai?
Sonna koto imada ni shinpai shiteru yo

Hirogaru sora wa sou jiyuu de
Nani mo kawattenai keredo
Tonari ni ima wa tada… tada kimi ga inai dake

Koe wo kikasete
Sunao ni nareba kitto
Wakari aeru hazu sa
Kokoro wo hiraite

Koe wo kikasete
Aruitekita michi wa bokutachi ni totte kitto
Taisetsu na STEP sa sono mirai e no

Kimi to hajimete deatta no wa sou
Choudo ima kurai no kisetsu datta ne
Raito appu shita machinami ga
Kirei ni kagayaiteita
Nakimushi na kimi wa are kara yoku
Boku no kata ni odeko wo nokkete
Naiteta ne sono nukumori ni
Mushou ni furetaku naru

Hito wa dare demo sorezore ni nayami wo kakaete ikiru
Koware souna kokoro wo hisshi ni dakishimete

Koe wo kikasete
Yasashiku nareba motto
Aishiaeru hazu sa
Me wo sora sanai de

Koe wo kikasete
Karami tsuku fuan mo sabishisa mo koete yukou
Ima no kono kimochi ga kizuna ni naru

Yeah, Since you went away hasn’t been the same
In my heart all i got is pain
Could it be that i play the game
To lose you, I can’t maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life
Realize in the night while love shines bright
Can’t let you go we were meant for forever baby let me know

Days passed without you can’t forget you
Letting me be the cloud hanging above me
Raining on me missing your touch
Nights get longer and it’s hard to clutch
We’re apart breaks my heart
It's all for the best girl, you’re my world
In time my love unfurls
He'll then wait for you girl

Koe wo kikasete
Sunao ni nareba kitto
Wakari aeru hazu sa
Kokoro wo hiraite

Koe wo kikasete
Aruitekita michi wa bokutachi ni totte kitto
Taisetsu na STEP sa sono mirai e no

Translated:

The rain just now has stopped
The smell of asphalt is floating around the city
Hey, over there too, the weather is fine already right?
For the weather has cleared up from the west
Since you’re not a morning person
Everyday, will you be able to wake up properly?
I’m still worried about things like that

The spreading sky, the freedom
Although neither of them has changed
Right now, just that… it’s only just that you are not by my side

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
We’ll be able to understand each other
Please open your heart

Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, definitely
An important STEP to that future

The first time I met you was
Around this season right?
The light up street was
Glowing beautifully
The crybaby-you, from that time on, often
Laid your forehead on my shoulder
You were crying right?
That extreme warmth
From your touch on my shoulder

Everyone lives, carrying his own worry
Desperately holding his broken heart

Let me hear you voice
If we become more kind
We’ll be able to love each other
Don’t avert my eyes

Let me hear your voice
Let’s get over those entwined anxieties and loneliness
The feelings of this moment become our bond

Yeah, since you went away hasn’t been the same
In my heart all I got is pain
Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can’t maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life realize in the night
While love shines bright
Can't let you go we’re meant forever baby, let me know

This past without you, can’t forget you
Letting me be the cloud hanging above me
Raining on me missing you touch
Nights get long and it’s hard to clutch
We’re apart breaks my heart
It's all for the best girl, you’re my world
In time my love unfurls
He'll then wait for you girl

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
We’ll be able to understand each other
Please open your heart

Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, surely
An important STEP to that future

My fave part is GD's part! I love him so much XD TOP's voice is cool, too!! Too bad they didn't sing much in the song =(

Sem 2 Exams are OVER!!

2009-11-13T03:59:00.000+11:00

Well, after the exam, I went shopping with my Mom in Sunway Pyramid. I bought 4 new outfits!!! And believe it or not, 1 of them is milky white with laces (I love laces ;D) and the other three are all BLACK!! LOL~ As if I don't have enough of black clothes in my wardrobe =.=" My Mom was like "Black again??"

I planned to watch 2012 today, too, but the ticket counters were packed with herds of people! XD I didn't feel like queing up so I decided to watch it later.

After the last paper, yes, I'm free. But you know what? I felt relaxed...and empty. Not excited but numb. I'd been lying on the sofa, staring at the ceiling the entire time after I came home from shopping. There was nothing to watch on TV, I don't feel like watching anime, reading manga, writing my novels, reading books or even drawing!! But I don't want to sit around and do nothing or sleep through the whole day either! I don't know what is wrong with me!! I really need to go out with my friends and chill out. If not, I'll die from all these frustration ><

And I've also been wondering...what did Siew Yin they all planned to do today?? Why are they being so secretive? Well, I couldn't find out since I couldn't join them in Mid Valley. They're making me really curious XD

New art work!!

2009-11-10T06:49:00.000+11:00

Finished these in the last two days~

They're Eun Hye and Bride of Phantasos, respectively. Both with different style and sensation, imo. But my personal fave is the Bride. Love how it turned out to be with a "fantasy" feeling, the way I wanted it to be. For Eun Hye, though, it didn't quite turn out the way I wanted it to, especially the background.

A little note about the Bride: Phantasos is a Greek god who brings fantasy dreams to people. I've developed a huge interest on Ancient Greek and Roman mythologies XD

I combined this bit of interesting information I read on Wikipedia, which was the inspiration for this art piece, with an 18th-century-inspired avant-garde dress. I know, it doesn't make sense XD

Anyways, hope you'll like them =]

Dream came true...sort of

2009-11-10T03:54:00.000+11:00

On Sunday during my violin lesson with my talented violin teacher (and he plays the piano, too ;D), I was sort of panicking because there's this damn song that I couldn't play smoothly no matter how many times I practiced. I felt kinda upset when I messed it up again in front of him. Though, it was only one of the three songs which I practiced for the last 2 weeks, and I could play the other two smoothly. One of these two was a short version of Pachelbel's Canon in D. I've always love this piece since I watched korean's "My Sassy Girl". I didn't have to put much effort into practicing because the rhythm and the beat are stuck in my head for a long time already XD and it isn't a difficult piece.

And then, out of the blue, my teacher started playing the song on the piano. He didn't really say anything but I knew very well what he wanted --- a duo!!!!!

I was, like, totally stupefied but really excited at the same time that I almost screamed of happiness. Lol~ I've always wanted to play a piece with someone, a duo, quartet or whatever, as long as I get to feel the kind of beauty from the harmony of a few intruments playing together.

So, I played the violin and he played the piano. Even though it's not perfect, it felt amazing!! It makes me feel all the more unhappy about dropping violin lessons if I'm going to study abroad next year T.T And I was so glad that I have met this teacher. He's nice and doesn't have trouble to make me feel relax during the lessons (well, maybe it's because he's only a few years older).

And my dream really do came true!!!! Without me having the slightest idea that it ever would. I thought I could only make it happen if I join some kind of orchestra. I'm really on cloud nine now, for two whole days (so far). Gah~ It makes me wanna keep playing the violin and drop the damn accounting notes for the exam on Thursday ><

Romeo + Juliet; and an unforgettable memory

2009-10-11T00:25:00.000+11:00

Even though I said I won't be updating again for this month just two days ago, here I am writing another post XD

I bought a Japanese movie today. It's called "Romeo+Juliet". Some plot points are similar to that of the classical Shakespeare's tale of the tragic star-crossed lovers, Romeo & Juliet, but the former is very different from the latter. The way the two lovers met in the movie reminded me of someone.

He was not my first love, nor was he the guy I like right at this moment. But somehow, I'm sure that I won't be able to forget him for the rest of my life.

He was one of those naughty kids during kindergarten. I wasn't really friends with him at that time and we didn't really talk but I'd always remembered him for a prank he pulled on me. It wasn't a serious one but that memory is still very much vividly clear in my mind. Right after I graduated from that kindergarten, I met him. At the McD near my house. That time, that McD had a small playground set up for children at that age. I was playing on a slide and he was right in front of me. I didn't recognise him because of his face, but because of a mark on his neck. And again, he was kind of rude to me. That was the reason his face had made a deep mark on my memory.

After almost six years, I had practically forgot about this rude boy, until one day. My neighbour and my best friend at that time, Amanda, mentioned a guy friend of hers. The name she told me of was the same as the name of that boy I knew. At first, I thought it was just a mere coincident, so I didn't read too much into it. During a school holiday, my cousin took me to Genting Highland along with his girlfriend and her best friend (let's just call her Jenny). Jenny and us arrived separately. When we gathered, there was another person with Jenny. He was jumping around, talking casually with my cousin like they'd known each other for a long time. When they introduced us to one another, I knew it was him. Not just because of his name and face, but also the way he talked. The same rude little boy.

Because we were of the same age, I played everything in the theme park with him. He dragged me here and there, and I followed him around quietly because I didn't know that place well like he did. But after awhile, I noticed he had changed since kindergarten. He wasn't rude, he was just acting friendly. At the end of the day, I found out that he was the exact same boy that my best friend mentioned. But there was one thing I wasn't sure of, even until this day. Did he recognise me at that time? The way he looked at me when we first saw each other told me he didn't recognise me, which made me felt a little disappointed. But the way he talked to me and teased me told me a different answer.

About a year later, I was already in Form 1 with Amanda. The boy whom I thought I would not meet again appeared before me, in my school's uniform. He was in the same class as Amanda. When she introduced us to each other, his voice didn't show it but his eyes and his smile told me he recognised me, even for a little. I couldn't help but feel a tiny hint of happiness. However, I didn't see much of him at school. Only a couple of times where he teased me.

During my second year of high school, I had a crush on my first love. We didn't date until a year later. But during this year, something happened between me and that boy. I was ice-skating with my classmate in Sunway Pyramid, and to my surprise, he was there, too. The moment we saw each other, there was a strange feeling. It's like the "spark" that happens in all the love stories. We skated separately, each with our own friends. But he would often try to find opportunity to skate beside me and chat with me. Before we left the rink, he asked me out. I was too happy to reject him. Unfortunately, he forgot to ask for my number and I forgot to give it to him. He tried to ask me out again a few days later at school but something came up and eventually, we didn't go on a date at all.

I thought I would be able to see him at school more often than before after the gap between us grew smaller. But somehow, I never heard from him again. Nor had I seen him at all at school. I didn't know what happen and I had no one to ask because at that time Amanda, the only common friend we had, had transferred.

Thinking back now, if I did go on a date with him at that time, my first love would not have been my first love. And it would not have been so hard to forget about him, because people say the seed of a love (or a crush) that had ended without a reason will always be in the heart. One won't be able to rid the heart of it until it is properly ended.

He may have forgotten about me. He may have never taken it seriously. But I've always had a feeling that I will be able to see him again.

(Phew~ I can actually write about a guy in such a way. It really surprised me.)

A one-shot update

2009-10-09T06:07:00.000+11:00

I'm reallllyyy lazy to update these days. Was busy with assignments and tests and on top of that, final is coming up. I don't think I'll be updating for this month again. So, I'll post everything in one shot XD

Firstly, I really don't know what's up with my friend. She can be laughing and joking with you in this second, and the next second, she totally ignores you (I mean me). After observing for some time, I think I'm the only one being treated this way. Either it's because I didn't know her true nature before this OR she dislikes me. I don't know. She really does give out the impression that she hates me. For example, even if she saw me in the library or in the lecture hall, she could just walk passed me without even greeting or look at me; totally ignores me when I'm sitting next to her (and then acts like she's really busy by keeps on flipping her books and notes); treats me like I'm a scary and irritating virus when I asked her about assignments (as if she couldn't bear the thought of letting me do well in assignments).

Today, we were talking during the first lecture. And during the second lecture (continue straight after the first one), I was practically invisible. I asked her some questions, she looked at me with a "huh?" look and then started flipping her notes. I thought she was trying to find answers to my questions in her notes, but she had actually continued doing her own thing without even bother to give me an "I don't know".

And then, it's time for the last class of the day (a tutorial). We went there together half an hour early in total silence. After putting our things in the classroom, we went for the washroom. We were queing up and she was busy with her phone. Then, without even a word, she just left. Just like that. I was just staring after her and thought "What is wrong with her???". She came back a few minutes before the class started. She just kept flipping her books (in a really fast pace that I doubted she could even read a word) again. I hope I'm just being paranoid but, I noticed she only flips her books and notes (or buries her nose into them) when I'm there. Either she's trying to show off to me how much she has studied, or, which is the more possible explanation, she isn't fond of me. During that one hour tutorial, we still didn't talk. And when the class was over, *whoosh* off she went. Didn't even bother to look at me.

This wasn't the first time. I'm kinda upset with her attitude towards me. I was trying hard to be friend with her, but if she keeps these up, sorry... I think we can only stay as normal coursemates (I don't think this bothers her at all, though).

Okay, enough about her. Now it's turn to update about my favourite mangas. *Winks* Well...Tsubasa Chronicles had officially ended a couple of weeks ago. *Sobx* Now I have one less manga to follow. Though, I don't really get the ending. It's like the story isn't complete. And then, Stray Love Hearts. *Sigh* I know the translators have their own life and things to do but, I've been waiting for so long for the second chapter!!! I hope they can release it as soon as possible. Vampire Knight's newest chapter had nothing exciting. Just normal. Skip Beat, on the other hand, HAH!!!! Ren's reaction was priceless!! x] Haha. The king of the night was back for a moment.

And then, this month, I've been complimented quite often about things I wore. Lolx. A guy in the library saw my metallic purple nail polish (I painted it on my toes, not my fingers ;D) and told me the colour was very nice. And then there's the outfit I just bought. A few of my friends said it's cool *blush*. Some of my friends like my necklace that was worn with the outfit (a long necklace with an old-gold colour and some beads). I was also commented by the woman who was in charge of taking people's temperature when they go into the campus about my necklace (another long necklace with plastic "rubies" and shiny silver dragonflies). Haha...I was laughing to myself when the woman said she likes my plastic-ruby necklace because it was the next day after my friends complimented on my new outfit and the old-gold necklace. I was like, speechless. XD Erm...it's not exactly something to be proud of, is it?? Lolx *embarassed*

Last but not least, my new works.

In the first picture, I really like how Lilith Korbokova (the girl with dark long hair) and Damien's cigarette pose had turned out. And then the second and third picture, they were inspired by the Brown Eyed Girls' Abracadabra music video. It didn't turn out as I wanted it to be after colouring it =[ Oh well.

Brown Eyed Girls - Abracadabra

2009-09-27T23:03:00.000+10:00

This girl band is nice!! I've heard some of their songs before but this is the song that really draws my attention. Their dance moves are so...addictive XD I wish that's what we do in my hip hop class. But...too bad my dance instructor is a man. I doubt he will EVER choreograph such moves.

Ga In (the one with short hair) and Narsha (the one with imbalanced bangs XD)...Ooooh, I absolutely love their hair!! I've always wanted to have Ga In's hair...but I think it won't fit me. The same goes for Narsha's hair T^T Miryo (the rapper) reminds me of TOP from Big Bang. Her attitude, her voice, the way she moves and rap...EVERYTHING! Even her looks look like him XD I think the Korean music industry is being hit by the "Lady Gaga's style" waves. Some girl bands have adopted Lady Gaga's style (e.g. obviously, 2NE1). An example from the boys are, of course, none other than my GD-oppa =D

Btw, this is the dance version of their music video. It's not the official music video, but it's on youtube. So if you want to see it...go check it out yourselves. (I'm practically forcing people to look up their mv LOLX)

Enjoy the song. (It's really addictive)

Black Couple (edited)

2009-09-04T13:26:00.001+10:00

"playing" with photoshop again XP
brushes used: galactic brushes by axeraider70 and suddenly spring brushes by gvalkyrie (downloaded from Brusheezy)

*I hope I'm not doing some illegal things by using their brushes >< I don't know how it works*

I was trying to learn how to create glowing lights in photoshop elements. Gotten a little hang of it now but still have much more space for improvement. Gonna keep trying until I can call myself an expert at this XDD

For the "eyes" glowing effect, I coloured it on a new layer, then duplicate that layer TWICE (it helps to make the colour look sharper). For the 1st layer, I used Gaussian blur (radius around 2.0); 2nd layer, I put the opacity to around 60-70% and used Gaussian blur again (radius around 7.0); 3rd layer, repeated what I did on 2nd layer but I decreased the opacity and increased Gaussian blur radius. After finish editing, I merged the layers together and used colour dodge (with a lighter colour than the eyes). Blurred it a little with blur tool and it's done! Usually people just merge the layers and use colour dodge to add the lights but I like the effects of the method I used (and not to mention I didn't know I could used the former method XDD so I experimented and came up with this method, with help of course). For the "light ball" thingy on the girl's hand, I did the exact same thing, only that I used accented edges on it, too (brush strokes >> accented edges). I wasn't planning on using it at first. As I said before, I was playing around, experimenting. When I pressed "accented edges", the effect was really nice. That's why I decided to use it ;D

Stay...(Completed)

2009-09-02T22:29:00.000+10:00

Tools used: Mechanical pencil, Copic multiliner 0.03, Pilot drawing pen, PaintTool SAI, Photoshop Elements 6.0

Wow, it took me sooo darn long to finish something simple like this (compared to other DA artists). 2 and a half days! The longest time I've ever spent on a drawing. Gosh...This is my first ever digital work. I just downloaded SAI 31-day trial (better use as much as I can) and was dying to try it out. I had fun experimenting with it and photoshop too.

I was kinda lazy to post it when I finished this on Monday (after posting it on 3 other websites XD)

Still can't be compared to the works of those amazing DA artists. So, I'm gonna work harder! I'm gonna improve my colouring skills! Haha...Fighting!!

FT Island - I Hope (바래)

2009-08-29T19:47:00.000+10:00

This is my new favourite. I'm so addicted to it right now. The moment I heard it, I knew I'm gonna love it. XD I love Hongki's red hair (it makes him look fresh and even cuter! haha..it suits his skintone and face features well) and Jonghoon is sooo cool during his solo part! He made me wanna play the guitar too! Haha. And Jaejin *squeal*, Seunghyun *squeal* and Minhwan *squeal* are cute as always XD (LOLX I'm acting like an airhead fangirl) God, everything in this MV is cute. Look at the kids!!

Here's the video:

The lyrics are sad but the music and the band give out a happy feeling. Funny, huh? But I think the ending of the MV was kinda sad. He didn't even recognise the girl. T^T

Stay...

2009-08-29T15:47:00.000+10:00

This is the lineart. I just downloaded SAI trial version, so I'm gonna try to colour it. (Hopefully I won't ruin it XD) They are my original characters from Twofold. (The novel is here >>> http://miharu388.blogspot.com/)

Guy: Ciel von Hohenstein (I like the name "Ciel" so much thanks to Kuroshitsuji XD)

Girl: Wilhelmina von Aschenberg (I like "Wilhelmina" because I like its short form "Minna" thanks to Bram Stoker's Dracula and the League of Extraordinary Gentlemen *peace*)

I really like how the girl had turned out, especially her hair and outfit. Her image had been in my head for quite some time so I had to draw it out XDD

Note: If I made any ridiculous mistakes with the names, please forgive me because I'm not used to creating German names. *peace*

Monash v the Chicken (2009)

2009-08-27T16:15:00.000+10:00

Yesterday I had my business law lecture. It was at 3 pm and it was 2-hour long. As usual, I sat in the auditorium, waiting for my "always punctual" lecturer to come. 20 minutes later, she had finally arrived. ^^ And then, for the first half of the lecture, I was so sleepy (as usual) but I tried not to succumb to the temptation of the oh-so-comfy chair. I thought I was bound to fall asleep again but, suddenly, the lecturer mentioned something about food poisoning. She was trying to use an example to explain something to us.

The example was that one day, all the Monash students have food poisoning because of something they ate at the cafeteria. And the main cause was the eggs the cafeteria purchased from a supermarket. She asked, "Who should the university sue?" Well, a typical law student would have said the supermarket, right? But guess what my friend said...

While we were thinking who to sue and how to argue for the case, he just blurted out, "Sue the chicken." (With a really serious expression on his face)

Everyone (I mean me and my friends) could not stop laughing!!! And then we just turned the discussion into "how should we sue the chicken" instead of what the lecturer wanted us to do.

A girl friend beside me said, "How should we bring the chicken to the court?? Tie it up??"

And then, something came into my mind. "How do you translate what the chicken is saying?" and imagined how would the chicken look like if it is to wear a formal black suit. LOLX.

That really woke me up. I didn't fall asleep or even feel sleepy at all. I had been laughing throughout the next half of the lecture. Another girl friend was like, "Enough already la!" LOLX Sorry...I didn't mean to laugh that much XDD

SB Act 145 ---- OMGGGG!!!!

2009-08-24T05:53:00.000+10:00

Ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod OH-MY-GOD!!! *fangirl squeal* Kyoko's first kiss!! AHHHH~ It was with Shou!! AHHHH!!!

*Ahem* Pardon me...

Just read Skip Beat chapter 145 in chinese. I can't believe it. I had never expected a kiss to happen in SB. Ever!! (Well, what do you expect?? It's not a normal, boring shoujo manga after all.) On top of that, it's not with Ren!!! It's suppose to be with RENNNN!! Even though I don't dislike KyokoXShou pairing, in fact I supported that pairing at the beginning, I have grown to LOOOVVEE KyokoXRen pairing. Poor Ren-sama >3<

But I doubt Shou is going to, like, TRULY confess his feelings to Kyoko in the next chapter. It would be waayyyyyy un-SkipBeat-like. Lolx~ My guess is that:

1) a WW III is going to happen between the two guys (duh! obviously)

2) Kyoko is going be dead shock to not even be able to punch Shou in the face XD

3) Shou is going to shake it off by saying "I'm just giving you an experience as to how a kiss feels like" or something along the line (you know how he is). He would NEVER do something like grab her in front of everyone and forcefully make her become his girlfriend (BOF much~). I really don't want that to happen. This will totally ruin the godly Skip Beat's reputation! (Too exaggerated XD) It will make SB follow the tracks of other typical, nothing-special shoujo. Unless Nakamura-sensei decides to surprise us SB fans yet again. This chapter nearly gave me a heart-attack. What's more, it is a very interesting and distracting cliff-hanger!!! As expected from sensei...*sigh*

Now I have to wait for a month for the next chapter. What am I gonna do before the next release??! Well, actually, I doubt that I'll have time to even THINK about it since I have assignments, tests and tutorial work, Every-Single-Damn week. T.T

Finally~

2009-08-10T12:41:00.000+10:00

Woot~ Finally, man. Finally, I've finished it!! Haha. I know she had been waiting for a looooong time. (She = Pui Mun) XDD And it's been awhile since I last updated this blog.

Last semester (I even remembered we were in the library's computer room XD) she asked me to draw something for her. She wanted a couple doing "sweet" things (e.g. date. Don't over think it XD). I remembered she mentioned she likes guys in shirts (like those of working long-sleeves shirt) and girls that emit a 'cool' aura. That's why I decided to draw this couple. And thank god she likes it XP I've drawn for her once back in high school when I'd just started drawing. So, I think when she compares this one with the old one, there would be a HUGE difference, on the good side that is. Hehe.

I started drawing this, like, around 2 months ago, just before last sem's final. Back then I couldn't exactly decide on the background. A park was one of my options but then I'm not good with plants and nature so I just couldn't start drawing. But after I looked up on "how to draw trees" and some garden pictures, I kinda get the confidence to draw it out. And, surprisingly, it turned out better than I thought, even though it may seems a little crappy LOL

Since it turned out so well, I was unwilling to give it to her XD Only for a moment, though. I mean, what good is my talent if I can't show or share it with people?? So, even though still have thoughts of keeping it to myself, I'm gonna give it to her tomorrow as a surprise. Just hope that she won't read this post beforehand. *crosses fingers*

Here's the drawing~

The drawing at the first stage. A clean sketch without shadings and background (obviously).

The drawing after shadings and (partial) background are added.

And finally, the completed version of the drawing ;D With my signature at the bottom right of the drawing.

I've posted it on DeviantART and Mangabullet, too. I named it "Sweet Love" (because everyone who had commented said it's sweet and cute).

NB: Try listening to ballad love songs like T-Max's Fighting the Bad Feeling (Boys Before Flowers OST) when looking at it XDD It's just that the song's melody really suits it. It really does give me a sweet feeling.

Shouoto Aya: Newcomer for the Reverse Harem Genre

2009-07-15T22:48:00.000+10:00

Hmm...her art is really good. And I mean REALLY good. I like the guys she draws. No wait...I love them XD

I was too bored at home with nothing to do, and I'm also waiting for the next chapters of Skip Beat and Vampire Knight, I just browsed through the mangas under that genre. And, unexpectedly, I came across a manga called Barajou no Kisu by Shouoto Aya. At first I was just giving it a try because of the boys *wink* but the plot turns out to be quite interesting. There is also another similar manga by the same mangaka called S.L.H: Stray Love Hearts. Strange name, I know. But that's how they are, I mean the Japanese. Sometimes even their songs have really illogical names. S.L.H is published much earlier than Barajou but the latter got more popular first *shrugs*.

She was originally focusing on shonen-ai and yaoi, then later yuri, and now reverse harem and shoujo. The only thing that bothers me about her style is her female characters, especially the heroines. GOD! They are tooo chibi and short compared to the tall and long male characters. When they stand together, it feels like an adult and a middle schooler.

Barajou no Kisu

Higa Kaede. At first, my only favourite was him. I thought he looked cute, and I still think he does. (Look at this picture!) But after this guy (point down) came around, I have two favorites now. Kaede had become my second favourite.

Mutsuki Kurama. *Sigh* Isn't he just awesome??? I wish I can draw like that T^T. At the first sight, I just thought he was not appealing enought, but I was so wrong. His personality is cute and to top it all off, he's a night stalker! A vampire! Well, sort of... XD And who would have guessed inside his cold and scary exterior that deep down, he's a masochist?! The very moment he showed that side of him, I've fallen head over heels for him *blush* *heartbeat racing* Lolx... I sounded like some kind of psycho that would fall in love with a fictional, imaginary guy instead of one in flesh and blood. How frustrating. Characters like this often made me want a guy that is like him, which is impossible. He would be too good for me T.T

Stray Love Hearts

Aww~ Come on! Basically all the boys in the manga are bishounen! Is it possible that all the guys could be so beautiful?? Well, not in reality anyway. No offense but usually nice guys not = good looking; good looking not = nice guys. So...ya. If I have to choose, seriously, I would prefer a nice guy.

I have three favourites for this manga. Ichikawa Ren (the one with short brown hair, reason for liking him: need I to say more? He's a Higa Kaede look-alike! Or is it the other way around? XD), Reizei Kuga (the one with long black hair, reason for liking: Mutsuki Kurama and Kaname look-alike LOLX), and lastly, Kumoide Cain *points down*.

Cain and Kozue Hiyoki (she does look like a hiyoko to me XD). See what I mean? Cain looks like a college freshman and she (the heroine) looks like a middle schooler. No, worst. She looks like she is still in elementary school! But anyway, the reason for liking him is because a) again, a Kurama look-alike b) he gives out the Zero-aura, if you know what I mean.

In the sense of the amount of bishies, SLH is the winner but for the plot, I like Barajou better. The plot seems to be more mysterious and interesting. But it is still too early for me to decide since only six chapters of Barajou are translated and only one chapter for SLH. I'll have to wait a little longer. All in all, Shouoto Aya has made it into my list of favourite mangakas ;D

Drawings for Blood Moon

2009-07-12T22:59:00.000+10:00

Woohoo~ Haven't been blogging for awhile now. I have nothing better to at home but just sit or lie around, sleep for 12+ hours a day XD I did not do much during this one whole month of holiday. Sleep at 7/8 in the morning till 5 in the afternoon almost everyday. I used to be a "lark" (well, because of school, not because I wanted to) but now I have turned into a complete "owl". Today I've finally picked up my pencil and paper to draw (even though I said to myself I MUST draw everyday during this holiday) thanks to SuJu. Why? Because I have fallen in love with their song "Neorago (It's You)". After watching their music video, I was DYING to draw their outfits. Their outfits went well with their dance moves, which are absolutely charming and enchanting. I was not a SuJu fan but, GOD! Now I'm starting to like them more and more. They made me wished I could have a boyfriend that can dance like them (especially Eunhyuk. ZOMG! At first I thought he wasn't that good looking compared to GD *squeal* but then, after seeing him dance, HE IS SOOOO CHARMING!!) LOLX~

Okay, enough of the cool-guy fetish. The reason I'm writing this post is to post my drawing for my precious Blood Moon boys XD The first one is the unfinished version and the second one is, well, the finished version. Arggh~ The damn useless scanner! It made the colour came out weird. Totally ruined it!! It looked so good on the paper!! *pulling hair off my head* I want a new scanner!!!

From left: Damien Quinn, Jack Kennington, Leroy d'Evreux

Seriously, their skintone became so dark!!! It was supposed to be pale for Jack and Leroy! And Jack's hair was supposed to be seal brown, sort of a dark brown but it came out looking like black! But I am really satisfied with this design. I will be settling my character design on this one. Not going to change it again, I think. XD

P.S.: I know it's weird for a French to have black hair, BUT it really fits his character.

For the Blood Moon novel, go here >>> http://miharu388.blogspot.com/ It's my second blog.

잘가요 내사랑 (Jal Gayo Nae Sarang)

2009-06-19T14:13:00.000+10:00

Ahhh~!! My new favourite! It's from 8eight's "The Golden Age" album. Ever since I listened to their "Without A Heart" (or "Empty Heart"), I have started to like this Korean group. They remind me of the old Black Eyed Peas (how could they have disbanded?! T.T) The song is called 잘가요 내사랑 (Jal Gayo Nae Sarang or Chal Gayo Nae Sarang), meaning "goodbye my love". A college friend sent it to me via messenger. I saw her MSN message with this song title in Korean and I thought it was "Without A Heart". And then, eventually she sent me the song. I saw the MV. Gosh~ That's the first music video ever to make me cried!! It starred Kim So Eun from Boys Before Flowers (she is so pretty! Kim Bum x So Eun foreva!! SoEul!!), Jung Gyu Woon and Jung Jin Woon from Korean boy band 2AM. A beautiful song and a sad MV.

The song is in my playlist and you can watch the video here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ok2M0pFzAP8

The lyric is here (from http://qeagrumpygirl.wordpress.com/2009/06/13/8eight-goodbye-my-love-mp3-download-romanization-translation-lyric/):

annyoung jal jinaeni
hello, how are are you?

gwiyubdun ni ulgooleun yaejun gwa gateunji
is your face still cute like before..

jogeum neujen anbu neujeun ibyuleul dama sseunda
pouring out my late regards and my late farewells, i write..

ddeun geum ubsshi wae pyunjinyago mootji aneulji
i wonder if you’ll simply ask me why it’s a letter

maesaeji mini hompi heunhandae goodji
when messages on mini homepages are more common

peneul deuneun gun hokshina nae mam da mot junhwalggabwa
firmly, i pick up my pen.. just in case i can’t convey my heart

daleun bangbubeulon yukshina andwelguh gatta
i feel like i can’t do this any other way

himgyubduhla mani saranghetdun tuhla
it was really hard. when i loved you,

mwuh hana hana nae ddeutdaelo dwaeneun gae ubduhla
nothing happened the way i wanted it to

geuman nul gwaelob hyuhla seuseulo dajimhago
i keep promising myself to stop bothering you

jookeun deut gidalyuhdo niga oneun gun aniduhla
even though i wait until death, you won’t come

jalgayo nae sarang ijen bonaejoolggaeyo
goodbye, my love. i’ll let you go now.

giuk choouk modoo ijeulggaeyo
the remembrances and the memories, i’ll forget them all

jioogo jiwuhsuh sarang hanjumdo biwuh nelggaeyo
i’ll erase and erase and empty out every drop of love

nae mamaesuh
from my heart

hanbun dan hanbunman nul dashi bogae dwaemyun ulmana joeulgga
one time, just one more time, if i am to see you again, how nice would that be..

ilun duhdin milyun noonmooldo modoo jioolyunda
this lingering attachment, these tears, i’ll erase everything

momi muluhjimyun maeumdo muluhjindan mal
the saying that as the bodies grow farther apart,the heart grows further apart as well

hanado naegen soyoung ubduhla da guhjitmal
is of no use to me, it’s all lies

haru haru galsoolok chochweh haejineun naega ansseuluh
everyday, i become more and more worn out.. i’m sorry for causing you trouble

dolagal soon ubsseulgga maeileul mooluh seuseulo
everyday, i ask myself, “can’t we go back”

aetaneun nae mameul jwiuh jjanae solichyuhbwatja,naegen deulijiga anneunda
even if i wring out my distressed heart and cry out, you can’t hear now,

chooukeh ggeutaesuhya ibyuleul ggaedaleun hoo aeyaat
the end of our memories, after i’ve realized our separation,

nae mamaesuh nul bonenda annyoung
i’ll let you go from my heart.. goodbye

jalgayo nae sarang ijen bonaejoolggaeyo
goodbye, my love. i’ll let you go now.

giuk choouk modoo ijeulggaeyo
the remembrances and the memories, i’ll forget them all

jioogo jiwuhsuh sarang hanjumdo biwuh nelggaeyo
i’ll erase and erase and empty out every drop of love

nae mamaesuh
from my heart

duh shigani jinamyun nuhleul ijeul jool alatneundae
i thought i would forget you as time goes by

dashi ddo dashi nun nae mamsokae chajawa
but you keep finding your way into my heart again and again

andwaeyo nae sarang bonelsooga ubneyo
i can’t.. i can’t let go of my love

geudel geudel ijuhya haneundae
i have to forget you, you

jioogo jiwuhdo naegen ddo geudae bboonin gabayo
no matter how much i try to erasei guess you’re the only one for me

mian haeyo
i’m sorry

credit back to crazykootie@soompi for the lyric

Celebrating the end of finals~!!

2009-06-19T12:08:00.000+10:00

After coming out from the exam hall, me and three of my friends went straight to Sunway Pyramid to celebrate! Haha. Well, actually the only person I know is Carmen, the others are her friends and I can't even remember their name *shhhh~* It's a tradition to go out after exam so I won't mind who I will be going with. Even if I have to go alone, I don't mind at all, as long as I get to go!

So, we hung around the mall for an hour or so and then we decided to have dinner at the Korean restaurant, Che Ga. When we were there, we had wasted more than 15 minutes trying to decide on what to eat! Haha. Everything on the menu looks good. Especially those barbeque meat and seafood sets. Yummy~ And they are darn expensive, too. The set that we ordered cost RM128 alone!! But the dishes were really nice! Especially the barbeque chicken and pancake! They are my favourite.

The girl in the picture (Sorry, I really can't remember her name XP) and I ordered ice-blended mocha with red beans (NOT the coffee-mocha. It's green tea). Carmen ordered ice-blended mocha+watermelon (See the glass at the farthest right?). These drinks are just weird. That's why we ordered them XD *teehee*

Ahh~ dahk galbi (Korean marinated barbeque chicken)~ (or is it what it's called?) with lettuce...Mmmm~

I like it so much! Although this was not the first time eating Korean barbeque (gogi gui), I was still so overwhelmed by the taste.

The rest of the RM128-set. Haha. We didn't really finish the banchan. There was a small plate of kimchi. I had a small bite and...God, I still can't get use to the taste. It wasn't spicy but it just tasted funny. The black pot is sam gae tang (chicken and ginseng soup) but, again, it tasted funny. It tasted like plain water with salt. It's not how we expected it to taste like.

And the winner is...Pajeon~! Gosh, this Korean pancake tasted even better than oh jian (Chinese pancake with oysters) There were bits of meat and prawns with veggie in it. It tasted even better with the dipping sauce that came with it. I love it! And now I missed it. T.T

This...Seriously, I don't know what it is called. I just called it Korean hot pot udon. I bet you can't see the udon. That's because the udon was deep at the bottom, being buried by the ingredients. Lolx~ Look at them. The amount of the ingredients is just crazy! There were veggies, mushrooms, beans, tofu and my favourite crab sticks (or krab or imitation crab meat. Call it whatever you like) It was part of the set, too.

The set was meant for 2-3 persons. There were four of us and we couldn't even finish it XD

I really want to have Korean cuisine again! The barbeque and pancake, especially. I'm really in love with it. Or maybe it's just my habit of falling in love with foreign countries' cuisine. Lol~

We had been in the restaurant for 2 hours! People that came at the same time as us had already left well earlier than us. We were just talking about a subject the whole time --- Carmen's dream guy. I have to admit that he looks kind of cute but...OMG~ I would never go to the extent of falling so deeply in love with him to the point of stalking him~! *ahem* She knows he's full name, which state he's from, what year and course he's in and she has his pictures in her phone. And she hasn't even talk to him yet!

Gosh~ She met him on the first day of the orientation and she is attracted to him since then. It seems like he is really popular in his course and on the campus. And on the internet, too! So I'm not gonna say his name out loud. The whole 2-hour conversation was about how-Carmen-should-bump-into-him-"accidentally" plans. It was crazy. Insane! XD And we suspected him to be either pure Korean or half (it was because of his name, not his looks. He doesn't looked like a Korean). And then all of a sudden, the topic changed to Korean. We started speaking in Korean. Lol~ It was fun. I know only a few simple phrases and sentences. One of the girls (the one in the first picture) actually understands the language. She can't write and can only read limited amount of words, but she can understand Korean drama without the help of dubbing and subtitles! She is a Malaysian but she moved to Brunei. She came back here for only one semester. Won't be seeing her next semester. =(

Love Alive

2009-06-09T20:53:00.000+10:00

There is another song that I have fell in love with recently. It's Love Alive by Minji. It is a song from the Japanese movie "252 -生存者あり". It's also in my playlist XD *pointing at the playlist excitedly*

Obviously, the singer is not a Japanese. She's a Korean. By listening to her way of singing and looking at her name, you could tell that straight away. She doesn't have the japanese-style of siniging. They usually sing in Jay Chow style --- "eat the words" XD Japanese tend to skip some syllables when they're singing or talking due to their pace of speaking (It's damn fast DX)
Minji, however, sings the lyrics with clear syllables, word by word. It's not like I don't like it, though.

This is the link for her live performance: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jNCuZaU9YDE

Noctis and Stella: Their Last Kiss

2009-06-09T20:25:00.000+10:00

I was looking for a subbed version of the new clip of FFVersusXII which is the clip that shows the first meeting of the mega couple *squeals* (I have to say, Nokuto-kun is SO HOT in the video. This is the first time I called a guy hot, mind you XP) And then, after watching hundreds of useless fanmade videos of the couple *grrrr~*, I found one particular video from YouTube that I really like. Both the clip and the music. The song is called Last Kiss by Bonnie Pink. It is Gantz ending theme, FYI.

I have instantly fell in love with the song X3

This is the video I'm talking about. I've got the song in my playlist, too. *pointing down at the blog*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAhtG6n3K2M&feature=related

Here are the lyrics:

akaku moeru kokoro kotoba ubaware SANSETTO
tatazunda jikan to omoi no fukasa wa IKOORU
tatta hitokoto de tabidatsu nokare no inai asu wa
It's bitter like beer for kids

yaseta yubi ni KISU o shitaanata o zutto wasurenai yo
tatoe hanarebanare demo
saigo no KISU o oboete iru yo oboete iru yo

hajimari wa dare demo junshinmuku na BEIBII
nigai mika jitte mo kujikecha dame yo walk straight
satta koto dakedo ame no naka zukizuki itamu yo
I'm lonely as floating ice

yaseta yubi ni KISU o shita ano meku mori o wasurenai yo
tatoe hanareba nare demo anata no KISU o oboeteru yo

doushite mo wakari aenunara mitodokeru yo kawa no you ni
dare wo nani o semete mo ii aishita koto dake wa kegasanai de

yaseta yubi ni KISU o shita anata o zutto wasurenai yo
itsuka aeru to shinjite saigo no KISU o kamishimeru yo
yaseta yubi ni KISU o shita naita anata o omoidasu yo
kore de owari da to shite mo saigo no KISU wa wasurenai yo
wasurenai yo
wasurenai yo
kare no KISU o wasurenai yo

Drawing Day 2009

2009-06-06T16:10:00.000+10:00

I was "wandering" around deviantART last night (late at night. Again XD) and came across a certain journal entry that almost made me gone crazy. I did not even know there is such an event as the Drawing Day! I found out about it around 3 hours before midnight. I literally tossed away everything on hand (including that 4 cm thick Stat textbook XD), grabbed my most trusted mechanical pencil and eraser, and start sketching on a piece of A4 paper. It was such a short notice. So, I decided to draw something simple and easy but impactive.

I called it "Red Tears". Her eyes and tear are red. But it can't be seen here as my lousy scanner did some colour adjustments to it OTL >.<

Her eyes have a less obvious red than they originally are and the drop of tear on her cheek became...black~ Damn it! Baka scanner~

It is simple so it only took me 2 hours to finish it (including inking and shading).

I don't know about other people, but she sort of reminds me of Hiou Shizuka from VK. Maybe it's because of her hair and kimono (and that sad look on her face)? Hehe... I didn't intend to make the girl look like her but she just accidentally turned out this way. *shrugs*

Latest work

2009-06-05T14:47:00.000+10:00

I'm too lazy to update the photobucket slideshow XP

So, instead of going through so much trouble in posting the photos=> update the slideshow=> copy the code=> repost the slideshow, I'll just post my latest work of art here. If you're interested to view my other works, you could always visit my page at deviantART and MangaBullet.

chuiqi99 (deviantART): http://chuiqi99.deviantart.com/

chuiqi99 (MangaBullet): http://www.mangabullet.com/chuiqi99/profile

This is the sketch I promised to give to my friend, but it's still not done. Still pondering whether to draw a garden background or a colour-splash one or one with shadings XDD

Ahhh~ I call this sketch The Black Couple XD

When I was drawing this, I kind of imagine the couple to be the top assassins in an underground organisation.

*Ahem* I tend to do that for every sketch...teehee~

Boys Before Flowers!!! My current favourite Korean drama XDD

I absolutely love the boys in the series. Much better than the taiwanese and japanese versions. My personal favourite would be Yoon Ji-Hoo (the one on the farthest right), in both real-life drama and the drawing because a) he's the cutest and most handsome in the group b) he's the easiest to draw and c) he's the only one that turned out looking good in the drawing T.T

Heaven with a Price

2009-06-05T13:32:00.000+10:00

I have finally decided to use Copic markers as my primary art medium. Watercolour just isn't right for me. I am bad at controlling the colour and water capacity, which would pretty much ruin my work X(

I have found the heaven of manga art supplies at The Gardens! Yes. I'm talking about Art Friend. It has manga manuscripts and Copic markers!! You have no idea how I felt when I saw the whole rack of Copic markers. I felt like crying. Tears of happiness XD

However, nothing is without a price. This heaven of mine requires a price. A VERY HIGH price in fact. One Copic Marker cost about RM30. And I needed, like, 100 of them!! A 72-set cost about RM1150; 36-set is around RM610; even the smallest set, 12-set needs RM107!!! I'm going to go broke before I even get half of the number I need.

Conclusion: I'm going to have to start SAVING! No new clothes and accessories for at least half a year. T.T I have to save up money from my daily allowance, which is RM27 - RM30. I need to save up to two-third of it. It's not like I can spend more than RM10 at that lousy cafeteria in Monash *bleh*. So, it's going to be at least 4 months before I can lay my hands on my 72-set treasure. *crossing fingers*

The list of tools/supplies I need to buy:

1. Copic Sketch 72B set (The Ultimate Goal)
2. Manga manuscript/ Illustration pad/ A4 White cardstock
3. 0.3 mm mechanical pencil (Optional)
4. 003 Copic Multiliners
5. 005 Staedler Pigment Liners
6. White gel pen and ink
7. White acrylic paint
8. Copic colourless blender

= almost RM2000 *faints*

(And I'm doing this a week before my finals XP I'm SO dead~)

Vampyre, Vampire, Nosferatu~

2009-05-28T16:15:00.000+10:00

Hmm, I just finished a vampire novel I borrowed from the library, read the latest chapter of VK and rewatched Bram Stoker's Dracula last night (late at night, in fact. Didn't go for bed until one hour before dawn XD)

A vampire-addict I am indeed...>.>

After reading and watching so many vampire-related materials, I found that my favourite would still and always be *dramatic music*....Vampire Knight!!! Haha...

The fact that the thirst for blood can only be slake with the blood of the loved one makes me love it even more. I find that to be very romantic XD

There are so many differences between those three (the novel, manga and movie). The Burning (the novel) concentrated on a myth of the vampire lore that I loathed the most --- the sex. I mean, c'mon!!! Why do Americans have to relate EVERYTHING with sex??!! Give me a break!! The author made vampires seem like they can't survive without sex. This reminded me of the HBO series True Blood (the same old sex, sex, sex *roll eyes*). The only thing that kept me from tossing the book aside was the author's writing style. Her vocabs are incredible!! And her knowledge of history is unbelievable. I always have a thing for books with difficult grammar and words (hehe...) All in all, the story did not impress me.

Bram Stoker's Dracula, although it's the origin of all vampire stories, did not make it into my list either. I know vampires are meant to be scary and monster-like but I kind of got brainwashed by VK and other modern vampire novels. I don't fancy vampires that could change into anything and everything. Anything horrific and ghastly to be exact. I mean, how can the girl kiss that horrible thing?!! I'm sorry. Didn't mean to offend anyone. But I just don't believe in this kind of love.

Speaking of vamp novels, Twilight came into my mind. Well, as I said, I don't mean to offend anybody, but the plot really...sucks. (I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.) Meyer's writing wasn't as impressive as the Burning's author, Squires, or anywhere near it. It was too, for lack of a suitable word --- simple. It felt like I was reading a 7th grader's book. And the plot...God, the plot. It was boring! I mean, initially I found it to be okay but as the story progressed, my interest on the book just vanished. I still like Edward but not Bella. She had come around to be a really annoying and helpless heroine --- the type that I despise. (My favourite type of heroine would 100% be a heroine like Kyoko from SB) I didn't even have the urge to start reading New Moon, for Pete's sake. And I usually finish the entire series of a book. How could ANYBODY say Twilight is the new Harry Potter??!!!! Harry Potter is an icon. A legend! Furthermore, the two books are completely different from each other. Magic and witchcraft against vampirism and romance. How can they be compared? Based on what? Popularity? Wake up people!! It is well nigh impossible for Twilight, or any other books, to surpass Harry Potter.*ahem* My apologies. I got carried away.

Conclusion: VK is the best!!! And Yuuki, please wake up from your confusion. You know you love Zero, not Kaname XD

Break-In !!!!

2009-05-09T10:38:00.000+10:00

My beloved Billabong red+black wallet and mp3 player are gone!!! Gone~! Some stupid low-life asshole decided to steal for the RM70 in the wallet and the 3-year-old, less than RM300 mp3 player. Go to hell!

Everything that was being touched by the low-life, I decided to throw them away. Well, except for my homework+notes+bag.

We decided not to report to the police since they won't even bother to petrol around the area and it's ONLY my wallet and mp3 player. Everything else is just at where they are suppose to be. And who knows, they might just be part of the party (coffee money, if you know what I mean, my dear Malaysians.)

Luckily, my IC and phone are still here with me. If they're gone too, I'll probably find some black magic spells to curse him/her/them to die a torturous, painful and slow death. (What else can I do? I don't even know how the low-life looks like.)

Even so, my Red Box and Comic Paradise member cards are gone!! And my favourite mp3 player that I can't live without!! This is enough to make me snap. I really wish that low-life would have Li-Fraumeni syndrome --- die of eight deadlious cancers and die before 40. Hmpph~! I don't care if I sound unreasonable and harsh. Even if that LOW-LIFE has some problems that make him desperate enough to break into my house JUST for RM70, I won't forgive him/her/them or whatever, EVER!! Having issues like financial difficulties, unemployment, or need for drugs to curb/slake its thirst does not make it right to steal.

Die, you filthy low-life jackass! Die now!! Shi ne~!!!! しね。

世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死，而是......

2009-05-01T12:28:00.000+10:00

他跟她是大学同届同系不同班的同学，在大一新生报道那天，几千名新生排队等候办理注册，他穿者蓝色格子衬衫，恰巧排在她后方，从那天起他就对她一见钟情了。

四年来，他从来不敢去表达他对她的爱慕，他只能用他的沉默跟陪伴来表达他对她的爱，成为她最要好的朋友。她参加合唱团的高音部，他则是钢琴伴奏，她在学校谈了几场恋爱，他就成为忠实的听众，她毕业后出国留学，他就在当兵时写了一封封的信件到美国去鼓励她，她回国后没几年就结了婚，可惜新郎不是他。

她不是嫌他不够优秀，也不是不知道他对她的好，只是因为彼此太熟了，她无法想像，哪一天她跟他从朋友变成情人后会是什么样的情况？所以她跟他之间一直在友情与爱情的模糊地带来回摆荡。她始终坚持她跟他之间只是好朋友，不愿正视却依赖着他对她的好。而他却因为缺乏勇气加上一向温吞的个性就这么错过彼此的缘分。

在她的婚礼上，他上台致词祝福她幸福快乐。一个月后，他悄悄的瘦了五公斤。从此，她失去了他的消息。

她的婚姻并不如想像中的幸福。因为她个性好强加上事业心旺盛，她根本没有多少心思去经营她的婚姻。加上她以前习惯了他的细心、体贴及陪伴，让她觉得自己丈夫对待她的方式去跟他的好作比较，她开始怀疑当初怎么会看上现在的丈夫，她开始生气觉得丈夫不如一个好朋友来得了解她关心她疼惜她爱护她。一年后，她主动提出离婚要求。单身后的她在工作上更有活力、在职场上更有魅力，经过几年的努力，她终于在广告界挣出一片天空、占有一席之地。

功成名就后她开始觉得生活空虚寂寞、开始怀念他对她的好，可是，她没有勇气回头去找他。因为，她不知道他这几年来过得如何？因为，她不再是以前的单纯年轻的她。因为，她收到了他寄给她的喜帖。

在他结婚前一个月的某个周末，他约她出来吃顿晚饭，她很疑惑为什么他即将结婚，却还要约她出来见面吃饭？那顿饭其实吃得很愉快，他跟她好像回到了学生时代，她唱女高音他弹钢琴。社团的同学、彼此的老师、参加过的活动…… 许多过往会议在彼此的记忆间流动激扬，许多的陈年逸事在两人的对谈间重见天日，他跟她都觉得好像回到了那个纯真单纯的学生时代。

“下个星期，我要结婚了。”他放下刀叉，突然冒出这句话。

“恩，恭喜你。对方一定很不错，才会让你愿意跟她结婚。”

“有件事我想告诉你。”他的表情突然变得严肃了起来。

他说：“很久很久以前，有一个男生刚考上大学。在注册那天他慌慌张张的跑到学校的时候，看到注册的新生们大排长龙，他心里又急又慌正在不知所措的时候，这时有个女生很亲切的向他走来，问他是不是要办理注册？他发现那个女生竟然跟他是同系不同班的同学，他好高兴，觉得这个女生真是善良、是个好人。

他发现那个女生有双明亮的眼睛、笑起来有对可爱的小虎牙和酒窝，从那天开始，他对她一见钟情。可是，他一直不知道该怎么去表达他对她的爱意，她是那么纯真、那么善良、那么聪明慧洁、那么讨人喜欢，他的个性一向温吞又不善言词，只好默默在她身边陪着她做她的好朋友。

就这样大学四年过去了，他准备在毕业典礼那天告诉她：他爱她。

可是她却在毕业典礼的前一天文岸上在电话中告诉他说，她要出国念书了。他刚萌生的勇气一下子小时得无影无踪。她心想，毕业后他当兵她出国念书，他实在不忍心挑这个时候向她告白，要她等他两年的时间，所以就等她念完书回国后再说吧。她出国念书他当兵的那段日子对他来说是最难捱的岁月。

不单是因为他不在她身边，而是她在美国认识一个台湾留学生。他知道一个人在一向的日子是很寂寞孤独的，而她又是个怕寂寞的人，所以她尽可能的每个星期写信到美国去问候她、鼓励她、替她打气，可是她在回信中除了抱怨在美国生活种种的不方便之外，有很大的篇幅在谈论她在美国如何认识的一位台湾留学生，她在信中告诉他，她又恋爱了。她在信中告诉他，那个台湾留学生对她有多好、有多爱她，最后她写信告诉他，回国后她准备跟那个台湾留学生结婚。

他好难过，事情怎么会变成这个样子？就算他没有亲口向她表白，可是他一直用行动去关心她、照顾她、爱她，难道她就真的完全没有看到他的努力，真的不知道他爱她吗？还是从一开始就全都是他自己一厢情愿、自作多情？当他受到她的喜帖时，他听到自己的心‘哐’一声，碎了。爱比死更冷。

他鼓起最后的勇气去参加她的婚礼，看见她穿着婚纱一脸幸福甜蜜的样子，也看见那个台湾留学生、现在的新郎。他本来想看她一眼就先走人，却被眼尖的她瞧见他的出席，磨着他要他上台水果几句祝福的话。他人站在台上望着底下坐着的新郎新娘，突然觉得他跟她之间的距离变得很遥远，遥远到她不再是那个在大一新生注册时，在他前面排队等候注册的那个女孩。也不记得他是如何狼狈的逃离会场，只知道他后来床上整整躺了一个星期，一个月瘦了五公斤。

他决定要忘记她。他向公司办理留职停薪，一个人躲到日本东京去念书。在那，他认识了一个同样是台湾去东京念书的女生。那个女生在他最失意的时候鼓励他重新站起来，那个女生温柔细心的陪伴他、照顾他、包容他的过去，那个女生让他重拾信心、再度相信爱情，那个女生后来就成为他现在即将结婚的妻子。”

虽然他很爱他现在的妻子，可是她在他心底还是占有一席之地。所以他今天才会约她出来见面，告诉她这个故事，一方面把这段他跟她的过去做个结束，一方面把他的心从过去的记忆中解放出来。现在，他终于能够放开对她的眷恋，全心全意去爱他新婚的妻子。

她听完这个故事后沉默不语，只能礼貌性的恭喜他终于找到了他的幸福。她跟他举杯嘱咐彼此之后，她就推说还有点事要先走了，他要送她回家，她不肯；她要他赶紧回家多陪陪他的老婆。在回家的路上，她不由自主狠狠的哭了起来，完全不理会脸上糊掉的妆跟计程车司机投来异样的眼光。她所有的坚强自信在那一刹那全部崩溃，她一直都告诉自己，他是她最好的饿朋友，什么话都可以对他说。她有时后觉得她跟他的关系好像是相恋很久的恋人，彼此有着完美的默契。

她心底其实一直在等待着，有一天他会对她说出那三个字：“我爱你”。她心底一直不能原谅他为什么不会像其他男生一样，主动积极的去追求她。她一直矜持觉得女生应该等男生来追求，而不能够主动去追求心仪的男生。

错过了，一切都错过了。缘分就这么与彼此擦肩而过，再怎么不情不愿不甘不舍，一切都结束了。是她自己放弃了他的追求、是她不懂倾听他的沉默、是她不相信自己的心、是她忽略了爱一个人其实是有很多种方式、是她在心底要求他为什么不说出他爱她的时候，她其实已经深深的爱上他了。

错过了，就再也不能够回头、无法回到过去重新开始。一切都是她自己造成的结果，再怎么后悔伤心难过怨怼都已经来不及了。

她心底浮现出一幕幕他跟她共同的曾经、拥有的记忆，在结婚典礼上他热泪盈眶的祝她幸福。在她刚回国的时候，他陪她走遍整个台北市找房子买家具。在她在美国跟她前夫交往时，他是她最好的听众跟军师。在她只身去美国求学的时候，他送她一本她在合唱团参加所有演出的剪影。在她在合唱团唱女高音的时候，他永远是最好的钢琴伴奏。

在她大一新生注册的时候，她就发现有一个穿着蓝色格子衬衫的男生慌慌张张的站在人群之中，那个男生有点呆有点稚气有点可爱有点帅，是她喜欢的那一型帅哥，那个时候她对他一见钟情了。

世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死，而是，我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。

这段故事是我在一个叫 "飞鸟集" 的网站看到的。它给我的感觉不是感动，而是遗憾。为什么明明就在相爱着对方，却把事情弄成这个地步? 我从来都不能理解为何喜欢一个人却又不向他/她表白。表白真的有那么困难吗? 其实我相信所有女生都会像故事里的女主角一样，想要喜欢的男生向自己大声的宣布他爱你。我能了解女主角的想法。可是为了矜持而失去了一段美好的恋情，那就太不值得了。至于为何双方都不表白…我确实很难理解。也许是因为我没有真正的谈过恋爱吧。

最后一句真的显得太可悲了。之前在听梁静如的 "没有如果" 时，听见这段歌词的时候并没什么感觉。可当我看完了这篇故事后，终于明白了这句话的意义。

Craziness & Laziness

2009-04-29T22:47:00.000+10:00

Okay, so today was the first time EVER I had classes 4 and a half hours straight without rest. I was practically running from one class to another >< Now, I finally know how my friend (you know who are you XD) feels every wednesday. Her schedule is even worse. Six hours straight!! Crazy man~

So after the 4 1/2 hours class-rushing craziness, I was FREE~!!! While my friend was still suffering in the science lab (ha-ha). I was planning to watch "the Ring" with her in the library but...*sigh* Plan cancelled. I was in the mood to scare the hell out myself with that "thing" crawling out of the TV. Lol. I'm telling you, there is something wrong with me. I actually like being spooked. My Mom said I'm weird (may be even mental XD).

That friend of mine gave me a ride home (well, her mom gave me a ride home). We detoured to the night market near my place. I saw a really cute black dress with ruffles and ribbons (my favourites) on it! I was planning to buy it, actually. BUT when I heard the phrase "60 ringgit", I was totally dejected! Argghh~ I finally found a nice Lolita-ish black dress and I can't even buy it???!! Why??? Why??? Felt so cheated...I was so close to my dream dress and yet I can't have it?

It was almost exactly like this one...but without the belt. (I was surprised I could actually find the design on Google image)

After being back at home, I was starting to have that "angel v devil" moment. Initially, I wanted to start the damn ETW assignment tonight but after going to the night market and having fun with my friend and her family (plus salivating and drooling over the dress *sigh*), I wanted to lazy around again. A part of me said, "You have to start doing it. It's due next wednesday." And then another part of me was saying, "Who cares? Doesn't hurt to fool around first and start it later. May be you should continue the novel first." Hah!! Nonetheless, the devil took over and smashed the angel down on its face, walking all over it. So much for "evil can never win against good". I could pictured the little red devil dancing around on a side of my shoulder with its pitchfork and the poor angel orz-ing on the other side. Lolx. That's the side effect of watching (and reading) too much anime and manga. Always picturing things in a comical way.

At the end of the day...I still want that dress!!!

Noctis what n what???

2009-04-25T16:55:00.000+10:00

Haha, my third post in like 4 hours... I have this stupid habit of posting continuously once I'm in the mood. If not, I would stop posting for who knows how long. XDD

I wish I have a PS3!!! Final Fantasy Versus XIII is going to be released soon (I think) and I really wanna play it!! Gosh...

Ever since I've watched the game's trailer, I got all hooked! Seriously. I'm already in lurrvvee with the main guy even when I don't know his name. Pretty boy fetish XD. He would be my second favourite FF character after Cloud.

I found out about his name today. They finally released it *rolling eyes*. I have to say...It's a bit of a disappointment. I didn't imagine his name to be this...Latin-ish. And weird and difficult. Lolx. His name is Noctis Lucis Caelum (ノクティス・ルシス・チェラム, Nokutisu Rushisu Cheramu). It's "terrific".

Honestly, I just don't think it suits him but...Oh well, it's not in my power to object it. XD

I just wish my parents would let me own a PS3!! ノクト~君~!! *squeals* *faints*

Isn't he just cute??? And cool~~ (I have a thing for a guy with a cold facade)

"For the love of creativity and learning new things"

2009-04-25T13:40:00.000+10:00

If someone is to ask why I like to do things involving arts (music, writing, drawing, etc) a few years back, I would probably say "I dunno. I just like them" or "Just 'cause".

But if people ask me the same question again now, I would most definitely reply confidently with "For the love of creativity and freedom and learning new things".

My first ever interest involving art is designing clothes. I never had any interest in anything before that. It first started when I was still in elementary school. My mom was spring cleaning or something like that and she found some old exercise books (the brown cover small booklets that we always use until we graduated high school). They were my sister's back when she's in elementary school (that would be more than 10 years ago at that time. Now, I think they are already as old as a 21-year-old). It was all sketches and drawings of girls wearing clothes designed by her. I went through them one by one and all of a sudden, I had the intense urge to draw, to design clothes. I tried on some used A4 papers and they were really bad. I was so naive as to think that I could draw skillfully by the first time without even have to learn. And so, I got disappointed and I stopped. But I had started to pay attention to fashion and stuff from that time on.

Then, a friend of mine introduce me to the world of manga and anime when I was in high school (Form 3 I think). She recommended a shounen detective manga to me. Yes, it's Detective Conan. When I started to read it, I liked it instantly (but the plot is too repetitive and darn long, so I stopped at about chapter 100). That was when I started to draw again. It was still bad but my skills had improved. Only a few close friends of mine knew I draw back then. I wasn't that interested in manga and stuff, though. But awhile later, Astro added a new channel --- Animax. Now, that's when I got really addicted to manga and anime. After watching hours after hours of anime during the school 2 months break, my drawing skills improved sooo much that I could not believe it myself (whoever said watching TV is a bad thing XD). Then, it got better and better (after reading many mangas) until I was known for being able to draw in manga-style. My friends even complimented me about the guys I draw. They said they were good looking (you can't imagine how happy that made me felt). And the guy, who was the most talented artist in the grade, actually specifically wanted me to draw a poster (it's for a fun-fair thingy) for our class (we're in the same class) with him!!!! I was sort of dumbfounded when he asked me.

That was when people from other grades and classes knew about me. They actually like my drawings (especially the guys the I drew). They acknowleged my drawing skills and I'm being praised!! And some stupid fat-ass was jealous of our class poster (it stood out the most amongst other classes) that he/she/they tried to ruined every one of our class's posters. They tore down the parts where my drawings were. I know I'm being a narcissist but I can't help but feel proud of myself --- because someone actually felt inferior about my drawing skills and they envied me!!! (well, and the guy,too XD) That, of course, made me angry and annoyed because they were detstroying my art ><

Aside from being able to discover a side of me that I never knew existed, I met friends (really good ones) through art. I will make sure that I will be able to take on a university course involving arts even though my Dad hates it. I won't give up!!

Okay, so enough about drawing. Now, it's about writing. It started the same way as drawing --- influenced by someone's work. This time it was my friend from tuition class. She was talking to another friend of mine about a novel she had been writing on. So, I grabbed it and read it. It was not bad for an amateur. Then, another friend who came late saw me reading the novel and told me she was writing one herself, too. I got excited about it and I started to write. That's how the seven novels from the previous post came about.

The reasons I like to draw and write are: I can let my imagination run wild. You never have to be bound by the so-called rules/laws and norms from reality. You can be illogical as far and as much as you like. Something that is suppose to happen in a way in reality doesn't mean it will happen in the imaginative world, too. Nobody is to tell you what is right and what's not. The other reason is that I get to research on things I don't know about. Now, I have more knowledge about mythology (Roman, Greek, Slavic, etc), nursery rhymes (really weird ones), history, geography and climatology (especially US), medicine equipments and so forth. I can't even list them all out. Yesterday, I looked up on types of accents and now I knew so much more about the different accents in US and UK.

Now, I'm planning on starting to learn violin (and maybe even piano) next month. I just can't keep my hands (or myself) away from artistic things.

I'm stuck

2009-04-25T12:42:00.000+10:00

Okay, I was writing a chapter from the point of view of Jack. He was sort of "mysteriously" drawn towards Robyn who he did not find attractive initially. He was supposed to feel frustrated and confused because he knew he should not get too emotionally attached to a human but he could not stay away from her.

So...the thing is....I DUNNO HOW TO WRITE THAT!!! If I am not careful (and creative) enough, it would end up like another Twilight-cliche. I don't want Jack to be the clone of Edward. There's utterly no originality in it. And I can't accept that. No no nooooo.....

And there's another thing about Jack. I was planning to make him the mature-and-sometimes-childish character. Perfect personality and physical but hopeless when it comes to Robyn. However, strangely, he had "grown" more childish and less mature...I don't know what happened. He had become a typical seventeen-year-old instead of a "300-year-old vampire pretending to be seventeen years old". My head is going to burst open like a watermelon...

I need lemon lime and bitter!!! and pancakes and cheese and wasabi... Arghh~

These are some vampire boys that I find really nicely drawn. I admired the artists. I wish I could draw guys this good-looking. I'll try my best!! (And I've already discovered how to make my guys more handsome! XD)

五月天 Mayday - 夜访吸血鬼

2009-04-19T12:50:00.000+10:00

最近超爱这首歌的说… =D

这是我听见的第一首以吸血鬼为主题的中文歌。第一次听就已经爱上了它。一天里重复地听了几百遍。有点发觉自己越来越喜欢五月天了。一年前我对这个乐团根本就不感兴趣。好欣赏阿信耶！他有一个很独特的歌声。他可以唱舒服、缓慢、温柔的歌，也能唱劲爆的摇滚歌。真的很棒耶！

还有一个原因令我爱上这首歌━吸血鬼主题。我已经说过最近迷上了所有与吸血鬼有关的事物。我的死党们也说我是中毒了。呵呵~ 我也搞不清楚是怎么一回事。

歌词 (Lyrics):

满怀忧伤却流不出泪
man huai you shang que liu bu chu lei

极度的疲惫却不能入睡
ji du de pi bei que bu neng ru shui

只能够日日夜夜
zhi neng gou ri ri ye ye

然後又日日夜夜
ran hou you ri ri ye ye

无尽的日日夜夜
wu jin de ri ri ye ye

永远的深陷在人间
yong yuan de shen xian zai ren jian

我是蝙蝠却不能飞
wo shi bian fu que bu neng fei

困在日复一日的街
kun zai ri fu yi ri de jie

无止尽的狩猎
wu zhi jin de shou lie

彷佛一种天谴
fang fu yi zhong tian qian

夜色就是我的披肩
ye se jiu shi wo de pi jian

日出就是我的风险
ri chu jiu shi wo de feng xian

舞池里的狂颠
wu chi li de kuang dian

是我宿命制约
shi wo su ming zhi yue

上帝遗弃我们却又要给
shang di yi qi wo men que you yao ge

i黯淡的月照亮世界
an dan de yue zhao liang shi jie

要我们无尽又无情的繁衍
yao wo men wu jin you wu qing de fan yan

看爱过的人一一告别
kan ai guo de ren yi yi gao bie

做过的梦一一凋谢
zuo guo de meng yi yi diao xie

只留下我独自残喘的千年
zhi liu xia wo du zi can chuan de qian nian

-----Chorus-----

*无法挥舞天使的纯洁
wu fa hui wu tian shi de chun jie

也无法拥有魔鬼的果决
ye wu fa yong you mo gui de guo jue

只有像每个人类
zhi you xiang mei ge ren lei

贪嗔痴傻和愚昧
tan chen chi sha he yu mei

找寻着体温和血
zhao xun zhe ti wen he xie

找寻着同类
zhao xun zhe tong lei

满怀忧伤却流不出泪
man huai you shang que liu bu chu lei

极度的疲惫却不能入睡
ji du de pi bei que bu neng ru shui

只能够日日夜夜
zhi neng gou ri ri ye ye

然後又日日夜夜
ran hou you ri ri ye ye

无尽的日日夜夜
wu jin de ri ri ye ye

永远的深陷在人间
yong yuan de shen xian zai ren jian

-----End of Chorus-----

饥饿是最好的调味
ji e shi zui hao de tiao wei

孤独是最强的催眠
gu du shi zui qiang de cui mian

疯狂找一双唇
kuang huan zhao yi shuang chun

能够当我酒杯
neng gou dang wo jiu bei

早就对这一切厌倦
zao jiu dui zhe yi qie yan juan

也曾愤怒喝下圣水
ye ceng fen nu he xia sheng shui

却又无助醒在
que you wu zhu xing zai

下个漫长黑夜
xia ge man chang hei ye

青春遗忘我们却又要给
qing chun yi wang wo men que you yao gei

回忆的美就像玫瑰
hui yi de mei jiu xiang mei gui

要余生流血又流泪的受虐
yao yu sheng liu xie you liu lei de shou nie

看镜中的脸慢慢枯萎
kan jing zhong de lian man man ku wei

高举的拳渐渐粉碎
gao ju de quan jian jian fen sui

只留下了无限唏嘘的相片
zhi liu xia le wu xian xi xu de xiang pian

Repeat *chorus

Repeat *chorus

一个又一个孤单的千年
yi ge you yi ge gu dan de qian nian

噢~日日夜夜
ou~ ri ri ye ye

然後又日日夜夜
ran hou you ri ri ye ye

无尽的日日夜夜
wu jin de ri ri ye ye (wo~~wu~~)

我不能飞
wo bu neng fei (woah~)

Skip Beat ED 1 ~ Namida

2009-04-17T04:11:00.000+10:00

I like the first ending theme of skip beat very much. It's sorta a mix of r&b, pop, rap.....etc

It's called Namida by 2BACKKA. It means "tears".

Kanji:

僕ら何千回泣いても　きっともう1回乗り越える
不器用なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらい　わかるだろう
今が最終回　最後のチャンス　失敗したって恐くない
悲しさも　せつなさも　愛しさも　いつか癒せるさ

泣いてないて泣いた日々を背に　僕らもう1回強くなれ
臆病なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらいわかるだろう
きっと何万回　倒れても　きっともう1回　乗り越える
君の声　届くだろう　どこまでも　ずっと　まっすぐに…

思いどおりには　いかない日々
意気がることで　ごまかした気持ち
何かが壊れそうで　涙があふれそうで
素直になることができず
素顔になることができず
逃げ出すことばかりじゃ　想いは
いつまでも届かない
描いたゴールに立ち向かっていくんだ
雨風　受けても　立ち向かっていくんだ
あれよ　あれよと　時は過ぎてく
だけど　誰もが　きっと強くなる
ごまかした気持ちのままじゃ　押し殺した日々じゃダメだ
一度きりの人生の　階段を　今　登る

僕ら何千回泣いても　きっともう1回乗り越える
不器用なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらい　わかるだろう
今が最終回　最後のチャンス　失敗したって恐くない
悲しさも　せつなさも　愛しさも　いつか癒せるさ

届きそうで　届かないよ
掴めそうで　掴めないよ
いつもの　いくつもの臆病が僕の腕を引っ張る
離してよ　もう　行くよ　ここじゃない
今からでも遅くない
僕の頬をつたう　涙はこれで最後と決めた

まだ終わってない　終わっちゃいない　何も　まだ始まっちゃいない
答えは　まだ　出しきっちゃいない　まだ　諦めてない
僕が僕でいることの意味も訳も　喜びも味わっていない
一人でもう立ってる　僕だけの明日が待っている
涙ふいて　顔を上げて　ここからって　空見上げて
君笑って　手を伸ばして
一つの想いへ辿り着くまで

季節外れの　風が吹く
本当の気持ちに背を向けて行きていくよりは
多分いいよね　目指したあの場所へ

僕ら何千回泣いても　きっともう1回乗り越える
不器用なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらい　わかるだろう
今が最終回　最後のチャンス　失敗したって恐くない
悲しさも　せつなさも　愛しさも　いつか癒せるさ泣いてないて

泣いた日々を背に　僕らもう1回強くなれ
臆病なフリして　逃げちゃだめだろう
そんなことくらいわかるだろう
きっと何万回　倒れても　きっともう1回　乗り越える
君の声　届くだろう　どこまでも　ずっと　まっすぐに…

English:

No matter how many thousands of times I've cried
I'll always get over it
I can't act stupid to escape it
That kind of situation, you understand, right?
Now it's the last time, the last chance
Even if it fails, don't be scared
Being sad or depressed
Or having loved, there'll be a day
When you're cured
In those days when things don't go according to plan
The feeling of being deceived
It's like something being broken
The tears begin overflowing
It's impossible to be unaffected
It's impossible to show a frank face
If I'm always avoiding it
Thinking about it even now I won't stop
It's not finished
It can't be finished
Nothing has even started
The answer hasn't been received
I can't give up
I haven't even felt the significance, meaning and happiness of my existence
Something anyone needs
I'm waiting for my tomorrow
Stepping over those crying over and over days
I'll become strong
I shouldn't pretend to be stupid to escape it
That kind of situation, you understand, right?
Being put down many thousands times
I'll always get over it
Your voice will arrive, right?
No matter where
It will be heard immediately.

All done!!

2009-04-17T03:33:00.000+10:00

I finally finished every bit of my assignment+tutorial homework+japanese class homework!! I literally worked like a cow by finishing a week's work in three days...Haha. It's a great achievement for me as I used to do everyting last minute.

What's my motivation for it? Haha...you won't believe it.

It's because I wanted to continue writing my Blood Moon without worrying about those darn stupid assignments... Ridiculous? Yeah, I know. XD

So, I'll be writing Blood Moon again the first thing I wake up tomorrow morning (I'll skip breakfast...or even brushing my teeth XDD). I'm seriously addicted to writing novels recently...even more than I do to drawing!!! Gosh... A novel-holic? Nah, I think it's more like writoholic (is there such word? =P).

Jack & Leroy!! (My sweethearts) Here I come~! Woo~weee~

(Crazy girl on the loose XP)

Blood Moon cover art

2009-04-14T20:40:00.000+10:00

Just wanted to post the cover art for Blood Moon (my novel). I found this picture on the internet and thought it really suits the novel. So I took it and modified it a little using photoshop. I'm still new to this photoshop thing so I can't do much modification to the picture.

I passed it~!

2009-04-14T19:50:00.000+10:00

I. Passed. It. Woohoo~ Yeah baby!

I thought it was really funny that everybody was telling me the same thing before I went to the test today --- don't care about the "annoyed" face that the people working there make, they just want to look annoyed and angry and scare the hell outta you. Haha.

But then, there was this girl that was going to the test, too (along with my friend's brother and another guy) and she failed the "on the road" test when the woman in charge of her test looked really irritated and angry...without any better reason than that she was in a terrible mood. I thanked god I didn't get that woman in charge of me =D If not, I'll fail the test without knowing the reason, aside from the fact that she's in a bad mood. I'd say she's throwing a temper tantrum at an innocent girl. (Poor her)

As if that wasn't enough. She was hoping that she could at least pass the parking test, but... She misinterpreted one of the workers' instruction and that had costed her a pass for the parking test. I really feel sorry for her.

Anyhow, I'm glad I passed it. I can drive legally now (as if I will actually drive XDD)

Doom's day~

2009-04-13T19:27:00.000+10:00

我的死期到了! Tomorrow I'll be taking my driving test (finally XP) I don't know why I'm so nervous!! I'm scare just by thinking about it. I'm scare that I'll do something wrong and fail it. I can't afford to fail it. I only have this week free enough to take the test. If I fail it, I'll have to wait for about 2 months to take it again. But that would be impossible since I've already taken the "undang-undang" very long time ago. It's going to expire soon and I'll have to start all over again. Damn!! I'm doing everything that may help me to relax now. Surfing net, writing novel, listening to songs (and typing this post)... God, please help me. I know I can drive well, IF I don't panic. OTZ

Wish me the best of luck (and there won't be too many cars on the road tomorrow)! I really need to pass it. *cross my fingers*

My novels

2009-04-13T04:05:00.000+10:00

Introducing my novels~ There are a total of four that I'm currently working on. And I had already abandoned three! Gosh...I'm too greedy XD

Here's the list:

Chinese

1. 爱上阿多尼斯 (Loving Adonis)

This is only the working title. Trying to come up with a better name =P It's a story about ordinary high school students. Typical love story I have to say XP but I added some "Hana Yori Dango" elements in it. I had fun writing this story, though, 'cause it doesn't require much plot planning XD Currently, it is 150 pages long and it's on hiatus ('cause I'm working on my English novel) So....yeah.

2. 夜 • 女神 (Night Goddess)

This has a fantasy storyline with a little mixture of sci-fi elements. It's the saddest story amongst the four. It's a bit complicated, the relationships and the plot and all. I don't know what's up with my brain coming up with such a story. Haha. It involves mythology, reincarnation, cloning, hatred, unnrequited love and different dimensions/worlds. The main character had to go through so much that I almost felt sorry for her =.="

3. 无名 (Unnamed)

That's not the name. I didn't manage to give it a name before I abandoned it. It is only 14 pages long. I abandoned it because I started writing it without thorough planning and thinking. The plot is totally outrageous! Lolx~ It's actually the original "Loving Adonis" but I changed the plot and characters completely.(Sorry, I can't remember what's the plot. Teehee)

English

1. Blood Moon

The novel I'm currently working on (non-stop >.>) I am TOO into vampires, goth, blood and stuff lately (thanks to Twilight, VK and Night World) that it kinda scares me. Haha. I was watching a werewolf movie one day (can't remember the name) when I saw a really, really scary bright red moon. I thought it was cool~ And then when I read the ending credits, I saw an interesting female name. At that moment, the plot of this novel just popped up in my head. I can't help it. I just HAD to write it out. But the details came from further thinking. The general plot and the characters were already in my head, ready to be written out. I used the name I saw from the ending credits as my female protagonist's name. Okay, back to the plot. It's about vampires, werewolves, mythical creatures, their society and vampire-human romance (obviously). There are two main male characters. One is a complete gentleman and angel; the other is a total sadistic demon king. It's 93 pages long for now. I'm trying to reach 100 by today (after a break. I've been sitting in my room for almost 24 hours writing it XD).

2. Twofold: Princes of Gryphon

I had only written a pre-chapter and a few sentences for the first chapter. That's only 3 pages. T.T I had already written down the plot but I'm just to busy to start writing it again. Obviously it's on hiatus, too. It's about two princes being separated on birth. And they sort of fell in love with the same girl. This heroine is totally different from the other girls in my novel. She's not lady-like, elegant, defendless or having any damsel-in-distress quality. She, in fact, is the hero (ahem, I mean heroine) of the story. This one has a fantasy theme, too. It's set in medieval time.

3. Unnamed A

This one would be the English version of "Loving Adonis" . It's not that I translate it into English. They just happened to have similar plots. This is the first ever novel I wrote. I started it in 2005 but abandoned it a year later for the same reason as my unnamed Chinese novel. It's 50 pages long. The more I read books like Harry Potter, the more I think this novel is rubbish. So I don't see why I should keep writing it. XD

4. Unnamed B

It's the abandoned, original version of "Twofold". Most parts of the plot are the same but the characters are very different. I had written about 40 pages for this one. Actually, I like the plot but the problem was that I couldn't relate the parts of the plot logically. It seemed weird. =.=

If I am to become a novelist, my signiture genre would be fantasy. XD Three out of four of my (still working on) novels fall under that genre.

Konnichiwa~!

2009-04-12T22:44:00.000+10:00

This would be my first post on this blog. Haha. I suddenly had the thought of creating my own blog so I could post some of my art works and my novels. I hope they are gonna get some helpful comments so I could improve on them.